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I thought i would just start this thread for all of us who have sadly lost our seats on our previous buses, but still want to talk and share and move on in all different areas!

Please swipe your cards, pay your fare and share!!!!!!!!
all are welcome to the journey ending in "moving on street", "TTC avenue" or "let just wait and see walk "or ", "Its finally happened for me junction"

Hi Catsy, it sounds like you're pregnant. If I were you I would try to get a blood test to confirm the pregnancy and check hormone levels. Couldn't you call your docs and ask them to refer you to the EPU not for a scan as it's too early but for a blood test? I don't think you should get too down and already expect the mc. What makes you feel it's a miscarriage? The usual pregnancy tests may be too insensitive to pick up on the pregnancy as it's early. The spotting is sometimes normal in some pregnancies too. Maybe it's old blood from the d&c?

Bottom line is, you're worried and you should get a confirmation about what is happening to put your mind at rest.

Hope you get some answers soon!! Wishing you lots of luck! x

Hi all. Catsy - so sorry you've still not had any definite answers, it sounds like a very hard time. I hope you get proper confirmation either way soon (well, I hope it's good news, of course).

Thanks for all your advice. I've got no bleeding, pain, temp, so it's def. not an infection. I can't face a PT, so will just sit tight and think it was my cycle settling down. Thinking about it, the cramps could also have been trapped wind, and they weren't bad enough to wake me up and were gone by morning, so I figure everything's ok.

Tumble - glad you are feeling better. I had a haircut the day I found out I'd had a mmc. It was booked, and I figured if I was going to go through a horrendous physical and emotional ordeal it would seem marginally better if my hair wasn't so disastrous. It was the right decision, but very strange sitting there chatting about holidays etc. without saying anything about what was really going on.

Hi all

Just popping by to say a quick hello. Remember me telling you about my mosquito bite? Well, it got infected, my whole forehead, nose and cheeks swelled up so I could hardly see out of my eyes-am on very strong antibiotics which are making me feel a bit rubbish but seem to be sorting the swelling.

I went back to work on Monday so am pretty busy. I was worried about going back to work but it's actually been a good distraction as was starting to get all miserable again towards the end of the holiday about miscarriage, chem preg, stupid swollen head...... I was so worried how I would react when people asked me about my holiday, but thanks to me having a giant scar on my forehead, that's all people want to talk about!

hope you are all OK catsy really hope you get an answer soon

Hi! Feeling do much better now, think all the hormones have settled down. Going back to work tomorrow, quite looking forward to it as been feeling a bit stuck at home although it's going to be a busy day. I've been doing some work from home last few days to ease myself back in, with holiday and sick leave feel like I've been away for ages. Tough day today - didn't sleep well tonight and think DS has hit terrible 2's (is that 22 months?!), lying on the floor screaming every time he didn't want to do something - which was frequently.

Still spotting, now just brown, had spotting (not much blood) for about a week now. Did any of you have this? How long did it last? I know I was told I might bleed for 4 weeks, but getting fed up now.

Hope you're all getting on OK.

Lemontop, swollen head sounds horrid (but good distraction), not sure what I'll tell everyone at work, guess I hope they won't ask and it's none of their business!

Philbee glad you're feeling OK now. Know what you mean about haircut, she suggested I go out to show off my straight hair, I just chuckled.

ohhhhhhhhhh lemontop - thats sounds awful - those bloody blood suckers are flipping awful! i cant see a positive in them and wished they could be wiped off the earth!!!!!!!! had a few in my bedroom and also my ds19mnt been bitten on his forehead so now before i put him down i go round shaking the curtains and disturbing the places they can be hiding! people cant believe it when i tell them ive been bitten more here then when im away on hols!!!!!!!
Tumble - the thing is its really hard to tell when the bleeding will stop, but hope it will soon for you - be good to you xxx
catsycat - how are you doing?????????
its gone quiet on here, though a few are on other threads!
i do pray we get our happy ever after endings we all deserve it!

Been away for a bit- madness at work and not much to report MC wise. Think it may all be over although I haven't passed anything like the sac. Haven't bled for 4 days now and did three preg tests over the last two days (cheapies from poundtime) which were negative (i think, although a second incredibly faint line showed up which would indicate positive). Hope it's all over- everything feels back to normal.

Hope everyone else is over the worst.

MTF - Im so glad that your bleeding has stopped and that your feeling better in yourself, be kind to yourself there is no rush for you to spring back like the lst weeks has not happened - hope to see a positive end to this real soon xxx
well just coming out of my 2nd AF since MMC and so im hoping that the ov-ing signs will be as strong as i thought they where last month! so i can start to TTC and hopefully have a good end to this story!
sharing in others BFP is quite nice and im very happy for them!

Unbelievable! My MC started a month ago. Have had no bleeding for a week and an (almost) negative pregnancy test so assumed it was all over. A scan today has informed me otherwise. The damned pregnancy sac is still in there! Probably gonna have to have the ERPC which annoys the hell out of me as I've entrusted the last month to mother nature. Just wanted to vent! Argh!!!

Hi everyone. Sorry I've not been around for a bit - we decided to go away for a bit to visit my parents then house sit for them for a few days.

On day 32 of my 23 day cycle, I started properly bleeding, after 8 days of spotting. It was heavier than usual for one or two days, and quite clotty and stringy (sorry, TMI!) which is unusual for me. I can't see my usual GP till next Thursday as he is now on extended leave after being on hols for most of August. I was away for day 3 of the bleed (which was when I needed the hormone blood tests - obviously I had no idea when/if the bleeding would start). I phoned the EPU midwife today, and she confirmed it was a chemical pregnancy.

Smarting a bit, as I managed to lose two pgs in two months, which is an acheivement I never wanted! The only good thing was a) the cp was absolutely nowhere near as bad as the mc emotionally or physically (partly because I didn't let myself believe the + POAS results), an b) at least I am ovulating and conceiving even if it didn't stick.

The conception board is a bit too agonizing for me ATM, so will lurk here till I feel better. :(

Am going to see my GP next thursday and see if he can do any tests this month (particularly the progesterone test), and DH wants to give TTC a miss this month until I have had the tests done.

I'm so desperate to have one last baby. It just seems so impossible right now.

Mill sorry to here your mc isn't complete - when do you decide / find out if you'll definitely be having the ERPC? If it does come down to it, honestly I am the biggest baby about anything medical, and I really didn't find it bad at all. It was a relief to have it over with TBH...

Hello everyone, not been on for a while either, just catching up.

Mama thanks for keeping us all going so positively, love your posts!

MillontheFloss sorry it's taking so long for you, hope everything works out ok.

Catsy so so sorry that it turned out to be a cp :( , hope the investigations can be done quickly and give you some results, hopefully reassurance that all is well and you're just having a run of really bad luck. It must be so tough waiting in limbo though :(.

I've just ducked out of the conception boards too, AF seems to be arriving for me now so no May baby. Thought it would have arrived on monday and am actually really that it's still just the tiniest amount of spotting as I'm going away tomorrow to a festival that lasts all weekend. Festival camping with full-on AF is not my idea of fun. It's also our second time away ever without the kids and I'd been hoping for some cosy time with DP. Grr.. at least I can get drunk I suppose (think positive!).

Hope the rest of you are getting on ok? Anyone else TTC again? I might try and be more relaxed about it this month, but it's easier to say than do....

Booked in for ERPC. So much for letting nature takes its course! Feel like I've wasted the last month managing it naturally when I could have had the ERPC straight away. Could be TTC right now (well maybe not right now!)

Sorry about the CP Catsy. It will happen.

Puzzle, camping with AF will be fine. In fact my last AF before this conception coincided with a camping trip!

Hello! Can I join you?

I was on the Jan2012 thread but unfortunately suffered a mc. As it was my 3rd mc (I had 2 mmc before having my 2yo DS), the "products" (nasty term!) were sent off for testing. I've had a letter back this morning saying that the tests showed a normal female karyotype but they would recommend some blood tests for me and DH. Great news at the "normal" but it did make me think again about the baby I lost - especially now I know it was a little girl as that gives me something of the baby's identity IYKWIM.

Has anyone else had experience of these tests? Does anyone know what the blood tests may be?

We've decided to keep trying as age is not our side - DH is 40 and I'm 38. Hoping for some SWI over the next few days!

Sorry to see others here in similar situations. Hope that we can see eachother through the coming weeks and months into happier times.

Hi SESthebrave so sorry for your loss. Welcome though. Lots of lovely ladies here, so supportive and going through similar experiences.

This was my first MC (3 weeks ago) so we haven't had any tests - just told probably bad luck and hope for better luck next time. Finding out your baby was a girl must have been really emotional. I never really thought of this pregnancy as a baby (natural pessimist, and somehow didn't feel right) and I think that's the only way I've really held myself together emotionally. Good news all normal though.

Sorry I disappeared for a bit - been so busy! Started back at work on Thursday, had a night out planned ages ago (ex-colleague's leaving do). Ended up drinking way too much, lovely dinner but got home after midnight (can't remember when that last happened!) and felt rather tired the next day! Then MIL had a huge 2 day party over the weekend, was lovely but so busy, I kept having to sneak off to bed. At least DS had loads of people to play with / look after him so I did get some rest and lie-ins. Was a bit bemused when a couple of people I hardly know approached me and said they were sorry to hear and was I feeling a bit better? They were really sweet about it so I didn't really mind, but I did wonder how many other people knew but weren't saying anything, then feeling guilty cos I haven't told SIL's (didn't really seem necessary) but then maybe they know anyway?

DH was away for work last night, had all of yesterday with DS (love my days off, but he woke up at 6am - v unusual fortunately, I tried to resettle him, all ended in a 45 minute tantrum all before 7.30).Then he got hold of my glasses and bent them out of shape. Then I had to get DS up this morning and take him to nursery - usually DH does this due to my huge commute, can't wait to move closer to work, but another tantrum wasn't a good start to the day! Then was just tired and distracted all day.

House sale moving on, still nowhere to go so worrying about that too, and will have to find a new nursery for DS.

So now really tired, still have to change bedsheet as DS spilt water everywhere, better get going I guess!

Still more tired than normal, and a bit fed up, everything just feels like a lot of work. Still spotting v lightly - light brown now, not a problem but really want it to stop, want my BFN and then TTC again - really feel time is moving on and want to be pregnant again. (actually really looking forward to the SWI too!!! Guess that's my hormones getting back to normal!). Also worried that MC won't complete, and will end up with ERPC anyway.

Mill poor you, must be so frustrating. Good luck with the ERPC, at least then you'll know it's all done. Waiting for things to happen naturally there was always a chance it wouldn't work, but it might have done - you would never have known. 4 weeks feels like such a long time at the moment but it isn't really. (I'm trying to tell myself that!).

Catsy sorry about the CP. I had something really similar while TTC last time - AF started with spotting for 5 days before heavier bleed. Wasn't late though, so never did PT, so Ill never know. next month got PG with DS though - hopefully it'll happen for you really soon.

Puzzletree have a great time at the festival, I'm sure AF won't spoil it (although annoying interfering with 'cosy time'!). And you can drink beer!

Mama5 good luck with TTC.

Oops such a long post, think I just needed a moan sorry!

Welcome SES - i remember you from the same thread i was on so glad you have come to join us!Hope your feeling stronger!
lets hope sharing and going through this journey will help us all move on and have a wonderful happy ending! x

Hello,

I was on the April 2012 thread, had an ERPC last Thursday and am just sitting around recouperating/trying to feel normal again at home - I have one DD aged 2 who is at nursery today (and thankfully was last Thursday and Friday too), and things are slowly getting back to normal again. I'd had a previous miscarriage before DD was conceived (so this is my second overall).

I also had what was taken for testing - am hoping I don't get a letter like you did SESthebrave - that sounds too upsetting, I think I've done the same, not made 'it' a person so I can deal with it all better. Time will tell, I guess... I had no idea what they'd do with the results.

We're going to try again later in the year. I was hoping for 2 kids by the time I was 42 but that's not happening now - but I think we need the break to be ready for it all again - and annoyingly I had gestational diabetes immediately (rather than at 20-something weeks) so I think we need to make some major lifestyle changes before we do anything again (not that our diet was bad, we just need to be better).

A question for other ladies who've had an ERPC - did you have an ache, a bit like someone poking a needle into your kind-of-bladder area? Painkillers help, and I'm guessing it's just everything going back to 'normal' again- so just picking your brains.. it's not a bad pain, but if it does get worse I'll call the doctor.

Ohhhh Knittymum23 so sorry for your losses! but so glad you have found us this is a thread so you can vent, share, cyber cry, cyber shout etc!!!
I had a ERPC but really cant remember the feeling after i was abit numb and was crying alot!!!!! last Thursday is still so early and so if you feel the pains are too much then def contact the erpc unit they may have to give you something stronger, i never had too use my painkillers. and was surprised that my bleeding stopped within a few days! and my AF came back in July! im not sure about my cycle but am on 29/30days rather then 28 but fingers crossed wont see it this month due to me TTC! have endless friends around me pregnant and im happy for them but still very sad for me! ps - i never did any tests for me personally i think it would of hurt to much!
hope everyone else is well xxx

Hi SES and Knitty, and welcome. Sorry that you have had to join us, but glad you found us!

SES, I also have no experience of testing, as I thankfully only had the one mc. It sounds upsetting to find out the sex of your baby, though in an odd way, I think I might have been comforted as well to have had one of the questions about the baby answered - there are so many things I'll never know about how the baby would have turned out.

Knitty, I had a bladder infection from the catheterisation during the ERPC. Have you noticed if you need the loo more often? I really needed to go a lot and felt a kind of pressure all the time (sorry if TMI). It might be worth a trip to the GP - a 3 day course of antibiotics sorted it out. Take a urine sample with you if possible, as they can check it during the consultation if it's what I had. Re. the diabetes, a friend of mine had this during her 3rd pg, and she is one of the most sensible eaters I know - she was just rather unlucky.

Tumble I have lots of days like that. DD was a royal pest today - people in town thought she was funny. I didn't!

Hope ttc has gone well mama5!

Puzzle how was the festival? Hope AF wasn't too troublesome!

Thanks for the welcomes and support.

Knitty - sorry for your mc and ERPC. Last Thursday is still so recent, make sure you give yourself time for yourself and to vent/cry. I can't remember that sort of pain after any of mine. I think Catsycat is right and if it persists, I'd go and see your GP to get checked out. It could be a water infection which could be cleared up easily enough.

Mama5 - I'm also hoping that I won't see AF again any time soon. However due to DH being away, we only managed SWI once at any useful time - day before ovulation. I'm only 2dpo so a long wait yet! When is your AF due?

Hello tumble, Catsycat, Puzzle and anyone else I've missed.

thanks ladies, and thanks for the welcomes too, am at home today with DD (I don't work on Tuesdays anyway), and she's such an amazing distraction that seems to work (we've been building MegaBloks castles today and putting Dora The Explorer in them). The aches calmed down yesterday, so I'm guessing they're just general ones - and weirdly, I wasn't given any painkillers in hospital to take home... I'll definitely keep an eye on it though - if anything gets really painful/uncomfortable I'll get to the docs - thank you for the advice.

Work have been fab, told me I don't have to go back this week if I don't feel up to it.. I think I'll go in on Thursday, see how it goes and if it's awful maybe do a bit from home... I feel like I need lots of 'normal' too... It's weird, I told a workmate yesterday and she says I'm quite pragmatic about this kind of thing (and she's right), and maybe because I've had one before and have DD it's a bit 'easier' to deal with (easier feels like the wrong word)? Though I know a letter would definitely upset me - am under strict instructions not to open anything from the hospital from hubs, and he'll open it first...

Hi Catsycat - How are you doing? yeh im TTC but not making it consume me and more enjoying it rather then "making a baby" sex.
SES - thats what we are all here for to support and help and advice,fingers and all crossed for you that will get your BFP real soon!my AF is due 20th Sept
Knittymum- so glad dd has helped you through. kids are good at that!taking mind of things!. Wow are you really thinking of work so soon? good for you, i only returned yesterday since being off MMC was in june!
fingers crossed for positives this month ( all who want them)

Hi mama5. Glad all is well with you. We were planning to wait until I had blood tests to continue ttc, but one thing led to another over the weekend and we DTD a couple of times!!! Then I had a very definite ov on my chart and for the first time ever in my life on an OPK on Monday (DH was away monday night so no ttc on ov day, but the day before!). So I'm now in the 2ww, not too hopeful as sex wasn't plentiful this month, though was quite well timed! DD1 is 4 tomorrow, so we have a birthday party to arrange for saturday (hoping for fine weather and not too much wind - don't want the bouncy castle to fly away), so should keep me distracted pretty well - I have the whole house to clean, and a huge amount of baking to do this week. AF is due on 14th sept, so not too long till I know what's going on.... trying to be pessimistic to avoid disappointment, as I'm naturally quite optimistic and have to make sure I don't run away with myself! :)

What does make me feel sad is the post-holiday ironing pile lurking in the dining room. Must go and do it before it falls on me and crushes me!!!!!

Meant to ask mama5, how is work going?

Hello all, I'm back! Welcome to the newcomers, so sorry you've had to end up here, hopefully we can all support each other through, and make sure you give yourselves time to recover both physically and emotionally.
The festival was brilliant, we were so lucky with the weather, lazed about in the sun, listened to loads of great music, stayed up late, drank hot cider, danced in the woods... The boys had a great time at my parents so I didn't feel too guilty about leaving them. AF was the only downer really, it was so heavy too, I had to spend far too much time in the toilets (never a good thing at a festival!), and was up loads in the night with the dilemma of braving the toilets or attempting to sort myself out in the tent. Messy!
Had a few reflective sad moments too, I suppose because I had lots of time to think, and the boys weren't there taking all my attention. The surroundings were so beautiful, and there were a fair few gorgeous babies and glowing pregnant women (mind you there were also a lot of stressed and shattered looking parents too!).
Not sure how committed we will be to TTC this month, I know DP has always been happy with just two children so this all feels like it's for my benefit, and I'm starting to feel like it should have happened by now for our family to work in terms of age gaps. DS1 started school today, and DS2 will go to nursery soon. Missing that baby whose kicks I'd have been feeling by now :( But then I know I'm not the only one here who feels like that.
On a positive note, the AF from hell is pretty much over, hooray! Wonder how long this next cycle will be.....

Hi Catsycat - im liking the plan of action it seems that you just made things happen naturally good on you- fingers crossed we both will be getting a positive this month, now that would be cool! work on day2 not bad just a workmate that didnt know she was pregnant when i was is quite big i think she 18 weeks or so i would be 24 weeks and she walking like she very huge!
so all the" baby talk" is going on as she wants a girl!!!!!!! i would just be happy to still be pregnant!!!!!! i guess later on in the day someone told her and she tried to avoid me for the rest of the day! with her head held down! oh great now im making her feel guilty!!!! i didnt want that!!!!!!
thankfully my boss is great and said if i become overwhelmed i can go home she totally understands( shes had a few MC in the past) so glad to have that support! But i believe this is my month so soon will be telling her my good news again!!!!! ( thinking positive, brings a positive) my new way of thinking!
kids back to school yesterday, today and tomorrow so no more "im bored" comments!!!!!
another friend has had her baby 4 days ago, going to see her this week for a hold!!!!
Bring forth the baby making, 2 weeks waiting,symptom spotting, POAS month!

Puzzletree - glad to hear you enjoyed and survived it all AF & tent aint my idea of fun at all you brave women you! glad your AF is on t way out!
yeh im with you with the whole baby kicking right now! im trying to stop myself from thinking about it but right now its so hard pregnant women everywhere!!!!!!! and all i think is i wander if she would of been bigger then me if i still was!!!!!!!
but you all know the feelings- thank God we can share and air without the judgement or the "get over it now" comments!
im holding my breath for Lily Allen i really pray she has her happy ending!!!!