Anyone up? Help me get through my second miscarriage tonight!

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Has been confirmed today that my 11 week pregnancy is no more than an empty sac :( I have been getting what can be described as mild period pains over the last 24 hours but they've suddenly intensified tonight. After a pretty exausting day I took myself to bed at 8.30 tonight, but woke at about 11pm with stronger pains. I've taken a couple of painkillers which don't even seem to take the edge off it. Now I appear to be getting something like what I imagine to be pains similar to contractions - nothing/very mild pain one minuite to suddenly almost doubled over for about 10-15 seconds and then disappears again (I have never been in labour,so I'm sorry if that discription has offended anyone). My first MC was at only 5 weeks, so was more like a period so I wasnt expecting this. I have come downstairs so not to keep poor DH awake (eventhough he keeps asking me if there is anything he can do - bless him). I just need to keep myself occupied, so I'm turnng to you lot! :)

good call about having a bit of time off. Once I took two days off, and thought i was "fine" so went back - how wrong I was. Wait til scan as you say? Good to hear your boss is supportive. Hang in there (some more), and keep posting. January is littered with mc anniversaries for me, so you have even more of my sympathy than usual :)

Hey IfAt, how was today?

In fact, have a nice cup of tea and a sit down, rather than be interrogated!

how are you doing?

Hi if just been reading through your thread, im so sorry,and hope that things have improved slightly over the last couple of days for you ?

i was actually on here looking for some support myself. i miscarried on the 29th and only this saturday did the bleeding stop, ive been relatively lucky with work AS NO ONE KNOWS, I WAS ON A PROJECT WHICH ALLOWED HOME WORKING BUT IM DUE BACK INTO THE OFFICE TOMORROW AND DREADING IT. oops caps sorry !!

im more worried now that im going to end up with an infection or something worse, i have been under the EPU but all they do each monday is check my blood for my HCG level which is dropping all be it very slowly. on 29th i was 2500 on 5th jan is was 1500 on 12th jan i was 650 and just yesterday i was 460, ive been told until my level is back to below 20 usually 0 i wont ovulate so cant seem to get closure on this im struggling.

Though i elected for a natual miscarriage its now been almost a month ( started bleeding xmas eve) and im beginning to wonder is should have had the ERPC as im sure things would have begun to get back to normal by now, im wondering why they wont scan me again to see exactly whats left in their to still have such high levels, after all the scan on the 23rd showed though i thought i was 8 weeks the sac was only 5 weeks in size, seems to be taking a life time when all i really want is to be told im back to normal and can start TTC again as i really feel this will give me something positive to focus on....

Thanks ladies, I am much better thanks. The bleeding & pain have pretty much gone, which is a nice surprise (but also slightly unnerving), but I keep having random moments where I suddenly feel very sorry for myself, and can't help thinking about how happy I, DH & our families were over Xmas at the thought of a new addition :( I also get a bit depressed at the thought of TTC again as it seems ike such hard work (3 years for first pregancy which MC'd at 5 weeks and then 9 months for this one). However, saying all of that, I am doing a lot better than I thought, and I feel that I have gotten off lightly compared to some of the poor ladies who have posted their stories on here. My boss agreed that I should stay off work until I've had my scan on Wednesday, hopefully everything would have cleared naturally and I can start looking forward again. I hate being off work when I'm not almost dying, I feel like I'm Skiving and I can't help thinking and stressing about the things that arent getting done. Anyway, there are more important things in life than a few reports :) I have been very lucky to have a really lovely DH, and such a kind and caring family and ring of friends, and not forgetting you lot. You have all been so kind & supportive and your knowledge & experience has been very reassuring. Thanks :) x

MumTumWanted I'm so sorry to hear what you have been though, and hope you get some resolution and closure as you say. Unfortunatley I don't know what the procedures are but I'm quite surpried that you havent been referred for a scan after such a long time. When I MC'd at 5 only weeks I saw my GP who arranged an apt with the hosital for a scan to ensure everything had cleared and to check the HCG levels. Ask the question, there is obviously a reason why they havent scanned you. x

Thanks if its just all so confusing isnt it. Luckily my mum actually works at the hospital and is going to speak to one of the obstetricians as she feels its not right either so hopefully i will get some more info tomorrow night. just still dreading going into work tomorrow last time i was in i was all secretly happy knowing i had a sepcial secret from everyone, now i just feel barren.

I know the feeling about having your happy little secret. Before Thursday I found myself having a little grin to myself. I think that's what I find upsetting the most, remembering how happy I was!