StillBirth at 31 Weeks Pregnant...

[BreakDancingBadger]

Hiya,

I discovered last sat that my baby daughter had died on Fri 9th... I was sent home from the hospital til Monday where i gave birth to her. I dont know why im starting this post really.... I just miss her so much and would give anything to give her a cuddle again... I feel so empty...

Thinking of you today bdb. It will be so hard hearing postmortem results but I hope it is another step on your road to learning to live with such a sad loss.

Jackstini thank you so much for remembering the post mortem meeting.

It went as well as we could have hoped but they couldnt find anyting wrong with Freya. Her heart just stopped beating....

As hard as it is to keep thinking that my little girl just died for no reason the only bright side to it is that there wasnt a genetic/chromosome problem between me and my husband.

We have been given the go ahead to start trying again when we want and have been told will have many more scans and a choice of how to have the next baby. Its all up to me.

I did find out i have group b strep though and im now looking around trying to research GBS and c-sections/vaginal birth as i wanna find the safest option for the next baby... I dont think i could handle losing another baby
xx

I am so so sorry for your loss. My daughter was stillborn at 34 weeks in 2006, I already had one dd and it had been a normal pregnancy. She just died, no cause.... it is heartbreaking. I am just so sorry you are going through this. I promise you it gets better, life changes and you change but you do survive. I have gone on to have 2 further dds. I was monitored a lot and towards the end felt like I had moved into the hospital. I had tonnes of scans as well.
I think about my loss dd a huge amount and her sisters often talk about her. I am sending you lots of love and I hope you know you are not alone.

Thank you Lunatic Fringe and AppleHEAD. Its so comforting to hear peoples positive stories after losing a child.

Today is my due date and i dont know how i feel really. I was never expecting her to come today, as my babies having a habit of being very comfy and having to b dragged out kicking and screaming, but its still weird.

This Sunday she would have been two months old. It upsets me more that i should b seeing her first smiles around now...