Want to be a nurse so badly but anxiety is crippling me

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What the title says really.

Unfortunately due to really bad anxiety and low mood (have told the uni this and have a sick note), I’ve missed the first few weeks of my nursing placement and feel as though I’ve made a really bad impression. I even told the ward sister how I was feeling and she ignored me completely. I feel as though I need to force myself to go in despite how I’m feeling just to get my epad signed off on this placement that I have been in but I feel so embarrassed due to how much of a bad impression I’ve made and the constant chopping and changing of my shifts.

The anxiety I was feeling for starting is just heightened with how bad of a first impression I’ve made.

Any advice on how to just brave it and go in and not worry with the first impression I’ve made (even when the sister ignored my email explaining why I was off 🫠) ?

I have support from the uni in the form of well-being sessions to manage my anxiety but I'd just like to know I'm not alone in feeling like this and if you've found anything to help if you've experienced this before?

I'm a second year student nurse if that helps? First placement of the year.

@NeshNamechanger thank you very much for all of your help! I'll try to push past the worries and just bite the bullet!

You are very welcome

Have you enough time left on the placement to complete your competencies? There is usually the possibility to do extra time if needed during your training.

This bit isn't your fault, but universities can be absolutely assholes to mentors over signing documentation, I had to explain myself when I couldn't sign off a student who did one week out of nine.

The feeling of being the new girl can be ever present to some extent. Large teaching hospitals tend to contract nurses to the hospital rather than a specific ward, so you can be moved areas and f they get desperate for staff, I would look carefully into jobs when it's time to apply. They tend to shift junior staff first.

Good luck in the rest of your training, you will get there, even if you need some extra time.

I had an insight day in A&E today. Bloody fantastic! Staff were lovely even though under serious pressure!

Thats great@OrlandointheWilderness
May be that's where you will end up getting a job ?