Never done this before !!!

[pinksmarties]

Hello, I'm very new to this and am crap at computors and don't know all the abriviations.
Was left by husband nearly 2 years ago, (were together for 27 years and he was the love of my life) tho it seems like yesterday. Going through dreadful divorce and feel totally heartbroken. He's set up home with young gf and i'm so upset all the time. This week is total pergatry and am dreading tomorow night (new years eve). Wish i could have an early night to avoid it all but i have 3 teenagers so will probably have to stay up all night checking up on their wherabouts etc. I have friends but no family and the aloneness i feel is so immence and engulfing. I still can't believe this has happened as i was so happy for all those years and thought he was too.
I thought we'd grow old together and the thought of him with her is just unbearable. I always put on a brave and happy face to the outside world but inside i'm dying. If it wasn't for the the kids i wouldn't stick around as this missery is too hard to live with.
I live near East Finchley and i know there must be other people in similar situations near me but i don't know any. I'd love to meet other people in the same boat

PS I am actually OK about the dts as long as there is no negative impact on my dcs. They are lovely babies and I have encouraged my dcs to bond with them.

I didn't want any more dcs and certainly not with him. My only gripe re them is that they follow the very strict routine which we are not allowed to mention on mumsnet and that does impact on all of us.

And his new p from what I can gather (haven't met her) is not particularly my cup of tea but that's irrelevant.

My theory about moving on quickly is that if they have been the one handing out the bad treatment its easy to move on to next partner.

However for the other party they feel hurt and burnt and are therefore very wary of a new relationship. perhaps I am generalising a bit.

So...time for a glass of wine I think.. (Baileys not for me). Chink chink..

Off for a quick dinner out a bit later and then back by 11ish I think to see/round up DCs. Just managed to confiscate one bottle of beer (should have checked the garden though, maybe more out there )

By the way, without wishing to whinge on NYE, would kind of help if XP was not giving out beer that I then need to take away (what a twunt).

That rlly made me laugh Ifyourhappy. Chink chink to you too and yes what a twunt, i love that !

My boys have gone off to their parties so the worry starts here. Wish i could get a bit p....d but have to stay sober in case anyone needs rescuing later. So unrelaxing.

Gonna have a tidy up cos its such a mess here and then will catch up with Corro and Easties. Sky plus in the bedroom is better than ANY man.

Hello

Hope you are all well and having a nice evening.

Hello, pinksmarties, do enjoy your evenings out on mumsnet! I got into it when my husband was working away during the week, and it really is an incredible community. People say silly things and sad things, and moral things and crazy things, and they love their children and hate the things the children do... It is very human, even though it's not online. We're also all different ages, which is good and broadening to all our minds. I've learned a lot in addition to the companionship and entertainment.

To other MNers, Happy New Year, I'm pleased to be with you!

Thanks Victory, I have been enjoying it today but have to be carefull as the hours fly past but it's so caring and uplifting.

I went on the relationship page and a thread called SWINGING NEIGHBOURS which is totally hillarious, really funny, i recommend it as it really brightened my day.

Off to watch a bit off telly now,

HAPPY NEW YEAR and thank you everyone for taking time to reply to me last night, it's made a huge difference and made me feel happier, i just need to get used to this site now as its so huge. I love the honesty of women, its so special.
lots of love xxx

It's going to be FANTASTIC!!

Even better than that I think Fluffy!

Good morning, all!

How did everyone's teenagers behave? Any of them hung over this morning?

My DS made a bit of an attempt to see in 2010, by crying at about 11, but we packed him back to bed sharpish with a drink (of milk).

Everyone a bit tired today tbh.

One partied out, one p**ed off and never made it to a party .