Having one of those days/weeks too. My birthday tomorrow and lost my rag at ds last night because he prefered to play on his nintendo than make a card for me. Given his lots of oportunities to make a card but he's been too busy playing and he's out at scouts tonight so won't have time now.
I know it's not his fault, but my birthday is always so crappy, no-one makes the effort to help him get/make me a card so I have to do it myself as ever.
So tomorrow I have a day at work followed by an evening out at the supermarket food shopping to look forward too. Thrilling as ever. Plus I only have £40 shopping money to last from now until 10th July so it's going to be a pretty dire shopping 'spree'.
My only two friends won't be around either. One is getting married (quiet ceremony for their kids and parents only, party is in Aug for everyone else to celebrate - happy for her really, but just drives it home again for me how on my own I am), and the other is off to visit her ill mother in Newcastle. Will get a text from them both no doubt.
Keep remembering how horrible it was last year. Least the people at work have learnt not to ask me if i'm doing anything fun. Two years ago one well meaning lady asked if my new man was taking me out for dinner, I said we werent seeing each other any more so no, she then said I guess you'll be going to your parents for dinner then. I almost laughed out loud. My parents live two mins down the road and inviting me over for dinner wouldn't even enter their heads!
And ex bf is hanging around again trying to convince me how fun it would be to be f* buddies. Reminding me that while he might like the sex making the effort to spend time with me or have a relationship isn't worth his time. Am I just not good enough for anyone?! I could quite happily go without the sex to be honest, I just want someone to hug and hold and love me.
I know i'm feeling sorry for myself and need to snap out of it, but yes all the well meaning people who say 'stay positive', and 'Mr right might be just round the corner', really get on my nerves too. Mr right might just be round the corner, but with no money to go out, no me time, and no babysitter how am i ever going to get out of the house to meet him!?
Really wonder why I bother carrying on with it all sometimes. At least I'm feeling slightly better than i was a couple of months ago, but 9.5 years of being a single parent are really taking their toll. When is it ever going to get better?!
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