I love my daughter, but have had so many difficulties in the last 2 years since ex left that I am doubting the point to my life.
I work full time 12 hour shifts and my poor dd is alone while I'm at work, this is the only way I can pay the bills and I feel so guilty. This is not how I ever wanted it to be for my child.
She is now 14 but after ex husband of 15 years left with no contact to dd its been an emotionally traumatic time for her.
I worked nights before and was equally responsible for bills but of course quit that when he left unexpectedly and could not find day shifts that I could work with a 12 Yr old. I am a care assistant.
When dd was old enough I started working full time again but we are both dealing with the legacy of dd's dad just suddenly leaving after 12 years of her life and I struggle to provide.
She can't understand and asks me why? I have no answers as I can't understand myself how he could completely ignore all contact once he had a new family. So cruel and I'm still taking the consequences for his actions. I know that sounds selfish bit I genuinely can't get my head around this and I need to mentally sort this so I can help my dd!
The financial difficulties have meant almost homelessness and needing food banks, heavy debt. But its nothing compared to the emotional damage to my child!!