right now these songs were made for me

[muma3]

whether your angry upset or hurt or just need to feel understood i think these may help . really listen to the words.

justin timberlake -what goes around
usher -burn
whitney-its not right (esp the line "rather be alone then unhappy)

thought they may come of some help to anyone who feels like me right now. very theraputic i reckon.
will be playing them full blast tmw once he has picked kids up !!

im itching to phone him >??????

no ... don't

he wants a reaction - i KNOW it is SO hard, but don't give in... react, but don't let him know about it

it'll piss him off even more if he thinks you don't care

argh argh argh

right now my ex -mil (mary poppins) keeps telling me to stop being stubborn and go get what i want. i need to tell him how i feel and ask him to come back other wise im throwing it away over nothing!!!

the whole point is that he has neglected our relationship and we will only ever get over this is if he comes running back makes me believe he understands me and means it and if he honestly makes me feel loved and important to him. i need her to be teeling him this not me.

its hurting so bad now. i cant deal with the rejection . i really feel like my heart is breaking. everything is cloudy and i cant even be bothered with girls . i just put them to bed so i could cry over bottle of wine.

i might text him qand ask if his love for me has really died and is it final.

someone out there help i feel so lost and confused right now. id give a stranger a hug.
i have been sick today too and im scared of turning to drink or an eating disorder or something i feel so so so low right now

oh muma, it is horrendous isn't it - especially if it was unexpected

feel so bad for you... wish i could say something to take all the hurt, but i can't

only that in time, it will get better - it sounds so crap, but it really is true

did you text him ?

not yet , my phone playing up as we speak it decided to turn on
never hurt so bad in my life

you won't end up with a drink or eating problem, I truly doubt that

this is proper grief - the relationship died; you are in shock, hurting and angry - that is all totally normal

how old are the kids? are there any friends that can come round to sit with you?

" its really over isnt it,i just need to know if your love for me has really died, i need to move on and i need to know "

its lame i know but i couldnt put it in words

i know he is going to be thinking
"ha ha i won she backed down"
"she needs me"
"knew she would say something first"

arghhhh

10y/6y/2y and no there isnt

whereabouts in the country are you? is there any mumsnetters that you could (or would) meet?

i dont want to , i want to be on my , sypathy and kind words make me nreak iykwim

be ion my own, and break iykwim

yeah, know just what you mean

at least on here there is a sort-of wall between the people... just keep talking - don't bottle it, whatever you do

he cant understand my anger and hurt. basially said that wjhen he comes here toget kids i dont make him feel welcome and im giving him no reason to want me.i just want to be understood by him

just having someone to talk to is really helping
thankyou .... really

so you are meant to have a cuppa waiting and ask him about his week?!! he needs a severe reality check!

a mums dp at school gave me a few packs of fags the other day and i nearly broke down. im not used to someone being nice and its hard to except

especially for independent people like us - you are in good company here!

i really cant do this, im letting my kids down but i just cant be strong, my world has crumbled like not before. im so bloody hurt

you aren't letting the kids down - they will probably be hurting too, it is good for them to see you are upset, I think - shows you CARE and have a heart

I sooo know how you are feeling.I dk if anyone here has heard of "The Wannadies",but they have a song called "The string song",and the lyrics in that...Whoever wrote them must have gone through exactly the same thing as it's clearly about a break up (What have you done,everything's gone.. is one of the lines,played that a few times when the ex first dumped me!).Definetly agree that Justin Timberlake and the Whitney Houston song hit the spot too.When I feel mad Kelis-I hate you so much right now! feels quite appropriate too!:-)

all kicked off.

i backed down and text him
asked how he felt he said dont know
thats all i needed to hear
if it wasnt beggng and sorry then it was over
it is over.
i lost it and collapsed
my friend came over and phoned him .. worried
he just argued the same old points and i had an answer for them all.

sex.... i asked him to stay with me last sunday and we could spend the morning in bed.....me making effort
he brought it up
i punched the toilet seat
puked
cried
cried
cried
cried
got headache
friend had to go home
phoned exp
told him i love him
im angry and hurt and just needed to feel important
thats it
over
hurting more then ever
got to face it now
its hard
its hurting sooooo bad right now

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