I have just had surgery to remove a tumour, cancerous, from my lung.
I am not a smoker, it was my 40th birthday this week and I have three small children.
I don't want to burden my friends or family with too much dark talk partly because I feel weird even admitting my thoughts to myself.
I put my whole career on hold to have my kids and was planning to go back to work this year so my husband could scale back his hours. Now I feel like my life is ending and I will ruin everything we planned, no happy family life for my kids and a long hard journey for my husband and can't achieve what I wanted either. My brother's wife died last year leaving him a widower so he's gutted by my news because its completely brought everything back and my mum's not coping.
I don't know what to do. So I turned to MN. At least it's anonymous.