FET/IVF/ICSI Part 2

[MoonlightDreamer]

As I was replying I realised the thread has reached the limit.
I thought I'd create a new thread for us all to keep in touch.
Please feel free to tag anyone I've forgot

@lauralozzle
@meliss
@thinkpink37
@luckypineapple
@ivfkinster
@babyplease23
@lolly2507
@4thcyclelucky
@marshk
@user491
@kitt86
@Hopingforno2in2023
@woaaaahnelly
@rosesinbloom19
@millie89xx

@Melisss Don't be too disheartened, lots of people don't get any symptoms and a lot of what people experience is just down to the drugs, but your mind just reacts to the slightest little thing! Nothing will tell you other than the test but my god this TWW is dragging in!! 😱

I admire your ability to know what your me tal health needs @Lauralozzle it's something I always struggle with. I love the feeling when decorating is done and everything looks fresh. And a new carpet is literally my favourite thing! We got new carpet in our bedroom at the beginning of the year and sometimes, I like to run my hands all over it because it's so nice 😂 favourite part of the house. It's a shame we have to walk on it!

@User491 congratulations!

Lots of ladies in the tww currently. Fingers crossed for everyone! I hope the tww madness isn't too difficult for you all.

Thank you for the messages everyone ❤️

I was unsure of whether to post or not, as I know how awful it is when you're going through it all and have had negative news, when others get positive news. I have been there myself. So I am sorry if this has upset anyone, that wasn't my intention.

I am so happy today, but I know I will be overthinking everything now, probably waiting for it to go wrong again, and tbh, I have no idea when that will end. Just got to live for the now, and deal with everything else as it comes.
Unfortunately for all of us in this group, we go through something that many never have to and it's unfair and cruel. That being said, when it does happen for us all, it will be the most wanted and loved baby in the universe because we have waited so long for our miracle ❤️

The process is tough, crazy and unpredictable.. but we will all get there eventually ☺️

@User491 I struggled with that feeling. I almost feel a weird bit of survivors guilt? Equally though if nobody ever posted success, we'd all struggle with wondering it it ever works for anybody 😊
I second just waiting for it all to go wrong, I hope you manage not to and to hold onto the happy feeling ♥️ I've been trying to repeat to myself that I'm pregnant here and now until proven otherwise. Which helps sometimes.

@Kitt86 how you getting on.

So none of my 6 remaining embrios made it to the freezer. we had 2 that made it to blastocyst but were very poor quality.
I feel kind of screwed. I know I had one transfered which I should be happy about but I don't feel confident at all, especially cause it was a day2.
Anyway shit news...

@Melisss sorry to hear that. I know how upsetting it is. We don't have any spare either . We transferred the only ones we had so have no back ups or or future use.
im confused why they wouldnt freeze your lower grade embryos ?
Mine were really poor quality and we only opted for a fresh if I was feeling upto it. They still gave me the opportunity to freeze them if I wanted to wait and transfer at a later time. They've just a good a chance as any. I'm living proof of that

@MoonlightDreamer they said they were really poor and they dont freeze those ones. I guess they have a certain criteria I dont know or maybe NHS policy. I just need to get used to the idea but at the moment I am a bit upset.

@Melisss sorry to hear that, I know its upsetting, we had 2 that they were going to leave to day 6 to see if they progressed but the clinic called me yesterday to say that they didn't go any further and would be discarded as not good enough quality to freeze. I cried like a baby when I put the phone down. Weird to say but I felt attached to them in some way....it's hard knowing that you don't have any on ice, seems like even more pressure. But all we can do is try and stay positive and hope for a positive outcome, hope your ok and looking after yourself. Let's keep the faith ❤

@Melisss I am so sorry for your sad news ! Did they let you no on day of transfer that they was slow developing ??? I know it’s hard not to be sad about that but think of that one fantastic super fast developing embaby on board ❤️🤞 I hope your ok

@Rosesinbloom19 yeah, I think that is it. The pressure that we have one chance. I mean yes we can try again but to go again through the whole process. I just need a moment to collect myself and hope for this one on board to be the superhero.

@Millie89xx they told me on the day of transfer that they will keep them until day 5/6 and then let me know. They didn`t sound that positive but I was in delulu land and was hopefull.

@Melisss strange how it varies per clinic. My round was also nhs

@meliss

@Melisss I hear everything you are saying. Feeling attached to the ones you e lost, I felt exactly the same. And also the pressure of the one you have on board feeling even more stressful knowing you currently don't have back ups. However I hope the one you have is the one for you ❤️ I also have used my only two embryos with no more money available.I have a lot riding on this cycle. It feel like from when you start taking your meds up until embryos are created is such a long journey, and losing them feels so hard. Thinking of you today. It's not over. The resilience required for this is absurd.
@Millie89xx I'm ok thanks. I'm 3dp5dt now. Feel ok. I just so desperately want both of my embryos to make it all the way. I feel little niggly feelings but I assume that's meds making my womb do weird shit. Lower back ache as well but again, bloody progesterone 🤣🤣🫣🫣 I have gone I to FULL nesting mode and have spent a fortune at BnM trying to sort and organise my house. It's actually a great distraction ❤️❤️ hope you are good xxx

Glad you are doing as well as can be expected @Lauralozzle and that you have lots to distract yourself.

I am really sorry about your remaining embryos @Melisss but I am keeping everything crossed the one on board is the one!

I have had the call to say my two remaining ones didn’t make it to blastocyst. A shame but overall considering my AMH my cycle went really well. Keeping everything crossed for my one on board.

@Kitt86 I experienced alot of lower back pain about 4dp . It went on for days. I'd read its a sign of implantation .
I got my bfp so who knows

@Hopingforno2in2023 ahhh that’s a shame isn’t it ! You got one in freezer after transfer tho didn’t you?

how are we all feeling this evening ? I’m terribly bloated today and starving 😂😂😂😂

@LuckyPineapple did you manage to get your results?
So annoying mine weren't in today.
On a plus tho my hcg has different risen. It's really taken off and I'm not getting dye stealers which is somewhat of a relief to know at least its rising. I think its my progesterone that I'm feeling most concerned about. I can't understand why they've stopped mine already

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@MoonlightDreamer huge congratulations. How are you feeling

I did not just tag myself 😄 oh dear

I meant to tag you @User491 to say congratulations

@Lauralozzle It's good to have some distractions and to give yourself time. I remember when my last transfer failed I found out the morning I was leaving on holiday. I thought it was terrible timing but to be honest it give me distraction. Look after yourself and do nice things.

@Melisss I'm so sorry to hear about your update. Take the time to be upset with it. We put a lot of hope in this process. Think positive manifesting for that little embaby you have 🙏🏻

@MoonIightDreamer That's great you're getting dye stealers!
Yes my clinic called and hcg is 155. Apparently this is normal but they've asked me to come and do a second one tomorrow. I didn't test this morning although i've seen progress yesterday so I'm hoping there is more progress in the morning. I'm not sure why they've taken you off progesterone. I don't think my progesterone was tested but it just seems a standard that I've to continue using it. Even when I got a negative and period started with last transfer they didn't want me to stop using it until hcg blood test was done. If you're concerned I would ask them. Can't do any harm.

@IVFKinster yes 100% and your totally right just got to keep ticking the days off, my OTD is tomorrow, so I'll ring the clinic and get a scan date, pretty sure it will be 3 weeks tomorrow.. seems so long away 😂

@LuckyPineapple that's good, at least after tomorrows results it will put your mind at ease 🙂

@MoonIightDreamer that made me laugh 😂😂
Thank you! Every day will be a step in the right direction. Doesn't really feel real at the moment.
That's excellent news about the dye stealer, hope your results are available tomorrow, are you getting a second one done too?
I will never understand the progesterone, I think I've maybe said but my clinic are the same and the anxiety stopping it is awful! Thing is it wouldn't do any harm to just use it anyways. I will see what my blood test comes back as then hassle my doctors about it if I'm concerned.

@Hopingforno2in2023 @Melisss @Rosesinbloom19 So sorry about your other embryos, but fingers crossed for the transferred ones☺️

@Kitt86 I also had backache for about 2/3 days, it was more at the end of the day and I just had to sit down and get comfy, I hope it's a positive sign for you 🤞🏻

@Lauralozzle I think the break is a good idea, you can enjoy xmas and your bday without all IVF stress and medications.
Sounds like a great distraction doing all the jobs, it's one of those things that gives you so much satisfaction too,
Will be all lovely and fresh in time for Christmas 🥰

I think in fresh transfer cycles your ovaries/corpus luteum will produce progesterone so they only give you enough to get to bfp because in theory you don't need it?

Whereas in frozen transfers, you don't have a corpus luteum so need allll the progesterone until the placenta takes over?

I got my clinic to bring my scan forward @User491 as I just couldn't handle waiting. I've been having a lot of spotting (just tiny amounts mostly but almost everyday since transfer) and they brought it forward by two days 😂 it was originally booked in for 7 weeks pregnant exactly though. Longest wait of my life. Genuinely the last 10 years have gone quicker.