@Gardenlady543 it was ok, thanks, but I'm struggling to feel positive today. We had it at 12pm on Friday, was a 4AA euploid with large inner cell mass, all fine and they were happy with it. But I've had AAs before that haven't even implanted so it's difficult, and it feels like a lot of pressure if riding on this one.
They tested my progesterone on transfer day and it was 43, so needed to increase Lubion to every day because they wanted it to be 50. I really do wonder if maybe my progesterone was an issue before because it's always been low, but I wasn't even on Lubion until we went private, the first three transfers (including the chemical FET) were on Cyclogest only. I'm glad it's been increased, I suppose, but I don't feel reassured. Might do another test on Thursday.
We just got back from our beach trip, it was very nice and the water where we were was very shallow so i only very briefly "swam", and I'm using quote marks because it wasn't especially easy to swim in low tide. I mostly paddled and sat on the shore, but of course when I got home I panicked I shouldn't have submerged myself in water and decided I'd messed it up. I wish I could be confident my body was capable of this.
@Enfys23 Sorry you had to deal with that. I logged on today to a notification on another barely active thread of long-timers with a BFP photo and it upset me. Seeing those threads now makes me realise it's mostly just me and my dh who will fail at all this, we're in the shitty 5%.