It’s so draining isn’t it… It’s been such a rollercoaster. I’ll keep everything crossed for you for Monday. It’s so hard to know what are pregnancy symptoms and what are the result of taking all the ivf hormones.
It’s the not knowing that’s driving me mad. I just want to know whether to hope or whether to begin the process of letting go.
I just read this:
www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5024905/
Which makes me question everything again!
I don’t know if it’s helpful to share it or not because it looks like it was published a while ago (so maybe things have changed) but it suggests that people in our situation shouldn’t be told they are definitely having or about to have a miscarriage because the guidance in place at the time they wrote the article is based upon unreliable data.
But the fact I’m bleeding isn’t exactly ideal. So I’m not sure it applies to me.
re: rounds and pregnancies. We have one 21 month old (21 months tomorrow) conceived via ivf, and this is our first round for this pregnancy.
We had a really bad mistake made on a scan in my last pregnancy (we were told that our baby had 8cm fluid compressing one side of his brain in the third trimester) we were told he was critically injured… the sonographer was tearful and we were in pieces. They didn’t know if it was fluid or blood. We thought he was either dying in my womb or was at best going to be severely brain damaged. I convinced myself it was my fault because I’d played fruit ninja too enthusiastically on VR headset.
Turns out he was perfectly fine. Literally nothing wrong. Not even a tiny cyst. No fluid of any description. Nobody could work out what happened. They called it an ‘artefact’ I think. So many clinicians were scanning me in the following weeks trying to recreate the same imagery that the sonographer had captured but nobody could. I’ve never experienced anything like it.
So you can appreciate I’m now finding it hard not to imagine that the sonographer has just accidentally missed the sac and heartbeat, however silly that sounds and even though it’s incredibly unlikely- my experience proves it’s not 100% impossible.
I will be thinking of you and hoping things have an unexpectedly good outcome. Would be good to hear how you get on if you want to share. Speaking to other people in the same situation is keeping me slightly more sane.