Yes, dreading today. Again! :(
I miscarried a second time through ivf in July last year, today I would be holding my one month old baby in my arms.
I found out last week that I’m pregnant again on my fourth round of ivf, so today should be exciting but as of Friday just gone, all my symptoms have disappeared and I fear that I will miscarry for a third time. This is what happened last time.
Today I will be telling my parents that I’m pregnant but I will have to tell them my fears as my anxiety levels are through the roof at the moment and I’ll need to explain why I’ll be a nervous, blubbering wreck at the dinner table.
To top it all off, my little brother and his wife will be giving birth in 4 weeks, my best friend has just announced she’s pregnant and on Friday my work colleague told me she’s also pregnant.
I’ve dealt with this for 6 years now and it just seems to get worse every year and I wonder if I’ll ever celebrate my own mother’s day.
Life can be so cruel sometimes.