Infertility is shit

[Icklepickle101]

Having a wobble after was so sure I'd be getting clomid to start today and instead got more blood tests and tube laparoscopy booked. It's just shit. Pregnancy announcements, bump pictures, baby showers and newborns all around new at work and with my close friends, every fucking week. I want to be happy for them but it hurts, it really hurts. I've had more cries in the loo at work than I can count and I'm sick of the sight of ovulation tests and the thought of yet more dtd. I don't feel like I belong on conception after getting the unexplained infertility diagnosis and waving goodbye to cycle 18.

I'll stop wallowing in self pity now, unless anyone else wants a moan with me?

Hi ladies, I feel the pain. My doctors have not been able to find out why and what might be reason of my infertility! My hubby seems to be perfectly normal on his masculine fertility grounds. Hell on earth is to see little kids around you that are absolutely adorable yet unfortunately NOT YOURS-! Everyday I wake up and look over my shoulder cry like a nutty lil child over why I could never make my own babies who would come over wake me up and bounce over my bed, play with my hair and my face. But, oh crappy world. No doctor, no test, no medicine, no therapy, no treatment could help me. I am probably under a curse. I feel devastated. :(
Sad Raina.

Infertility is shit, but people posting spam messages playing to people's fears and insecurities are much more shit.

The subject of this thread resonated with me. I haven't logged into mumsnet for a while but today was just one of those days when I needed to feel less alone while on this miserable journey of infertility. TTC no 1 for 4 years 2 mmcs. Hoping to go for IUI soon.. Treatment so far has been limited to med. Try to keep busy with work and stay distracted. Nearly all friends have kids. Mum lives on a different continent. Can get really lonely..

Cobblestones be safe in the knowledge that you're definitely not alone even though it can certainly feel that way ...especially if people around you are having babies. My close friends that know about my situation definitely don't understand. I believe that only those who have been through infertility and miscarriages will ever truly know how brutal it is.

I'm on cycle number 38 of TTC #1. I had a MC in March at 12 weeks.

We've just booked a few trips away, which is nice to have something to look forward to and hopefully turn this very shitty year in to a happier one before it's over.
Good luck with your IUI ...hopefully it'll be what you need for your rainbow x

Having a bit of a tough time.
Close friend of the family has just become a grandmother for the first time and my mum keeps telling me how wonderful it is and how happy her friend is. It's making me feel like a complete failure that I can't seem to give her the grandchild she desperately wants.
Got a hsg booked so once that is done I will be telling her that we have been trying for 2 years to hopefully get her off my back a bit although that is a conversation I am dreading. Urgh

feistylittleowl didn't want to read and run, sorry you are having a shit time, I too am feeling shit so can understand your feelings. Heres some and a hug.

This is a horribly painful, unfair situation to find yourself in, what with going up and down for tests, hopes raised and dashed, trying to magic up money for treatment out of thin air, we are literally gambling everything with not much promise of a result. I cant think of any other industry in the world where that is the case. The fertility industry is built on desperation and hope, sometimes it works, sometimes not. I'm literally hemmoraging money at the moment as we are on our 5th ivf cycle overall and trying for a sibling. And the hidden extra costs (blood tests, ICSI, HFEA fee, I could go on) give me the rage! It is cruel and tortuous and not helped by pressure from family!

I'm just ignoring everyone, friendships have suffered but my world has stopped. I feel as if i have nothing to say to anyone in RL right now as i am consumed by this, people who have not been through it just dont understand. I can't listen to platitudes!

However, one beacon of hope in all this for me are these message boards. Being able to chat with you guys is a life safer and makes me feel less like a freak as I realise so many others are in a similar situation. Sending positive thoughts to all of you and hope feistylittleowl that you have a better day today x

Just to warn you emily there are unscrupulous scammers stalking this board so if you get a recommendation for a clinic in the Ukraine as a "miracle cure", ignore it. No one with more than half a brain would touch it with a barge pole.

Are you in the U.K.? It's odd to see a gynaecologist to confirm you're pregnant.

purpledaisies I've reported the post. Something doesn't smell right