Cycle buddies Aug/Sept 2016

[HelloMist]

Anyone just starting a cycle or about to?

I've just got the dates through for my first FET to TTC#2. My first LO is 18 months and was made with the help of ICSI and IVF. I start down regulating in a few weeks.

I've already gone through various emotions and I know there are a lot more to come! Anxiety and indecision wondering how I will cope with a second child if we're that lucky and the possible age gap. Sadness that my clinic told me I had to wean DD1 from the breast. Guilt at thinking about another and no longer 100% about her. (Especially if I weaned her and it doesn't work). Stupid thoughts that led me to test without telling DH when my second postpartum period (after weaning) didn't show on time (only spotting, false hope that it was implantation bleed. It's nearly impossible for us to conceive naturally though. AF came this weekend so here I am). Scared that it won't work. The stats are lower for FET and we only have 2 frosties.

The first injection will be at the end of a family holiday. I probably won't be drinking but don't really want to tell them why not yet. Despite all this I am excited too!

Anyone want to join me as cycle buddies?

Hi!!!!
So... 9.15am had the call - of the 8, one was immature, one fertilised abnormally but.... SIX FERTILISED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really relieved and feeling positive that things are working and we might have a shot!!!!!!
We will get another call Saturday to say if we are going back Saturday or holding out for Monday!!!!
How are you all????XXX

Elle's that is FANTASTIC news, I'm so so pleased for you, what a relief .

Hope you are doing something nice this weekend to celebrate the good news!

I'm not feeling great, I have been spotting this morning which has had me worried but the clinic just said to keep an eye on it. Anyone else had this whilst stimming?

Hope everyone else is ok? Xxx

Oh goodthings :( I didn't have any bleeding no... Maybe chase the clinic tomorrow if it continues, you don't want it to carry on over weekend without being able to get hold of anyone.
when is your next scan?

Thanks Elle's, next scan is Wednesday morning, feel really worried that this will mess things up and as I hadn't read about it so has made me feel so anxious all day as it wasn't expected. Hopefully it will stop soon, but will contact them again tomorrow if it gets worse. We have a mobile number for out of hours/weekends we can contact if needed but hopefully I won't need to use it! Xx

Goodthings, I hope the spotting doesn't get any worse for your piece of mind. I didn't have that but quickly googled and some forum posts were saying they experienced similar in the first few days of stims and it wasn't a worry. Obviously keep the clinic informed and keep an eye on it but that seems reassuring.

That's good progress, Elles, pleased for you!

I've been imagining I feel things (mostly when I'm not doing anything and have too much time to think!) I think it's just the 2ww messing with my head and/or the drugs unfortunately. It's too early. Dying to be able to test!

Picked up a knitting project last night as I really need something to occupy my brain. I'm not great at knitting though so I'm not sure how relaxing it'll be! Distracting at least.

Thanks for the reassurance mist!

It's not getting any worse, but still there.

Good luck with the knitting project, hopefully it comes in handy . When can you test? Xx

Knitting a toddler hat for DD. Won't be jinxing anything by knitting smaller items!

Officially on Thursday. Will try my hardest not to before Wed!

Hello lovelies, how are you all?

Goodthings.. How you feeling? Hope the bleeding has stopped?

Mist.. I bet it's agony waiting to test.. That will be me this time next week!!!

Tata hope you are having a fab weekend

Oops pressed send too soon!

Fcuk.. Two days to go! So v nearly there!

Kez how are you?

Kwick been thinking of you, all ok?

Bryony, scan wait not sure if you check this anymore but hope you are ok!

When will I learn?!

Ok so... Had call from clinic this morning... At 8.15am! I assumed that it was early because they would want us to go in today but... They have booked us in for Monday! 5 embryos were still going strong this am and the 6th was lagging but they were hopeful about getting to blastocyst!!!!!

Elle's been thinking of you all day, so so pleased for you. That's brilliant news .

Finally stopped bleeding today, fingers crossed all goes well at scan on Wednesday and I can move forward.

Good luck for Monday xx

Good morning everyone,

So many exciting news while I was away!!! Elles keeping everything x for you today!!!

Mist, Goodthings, how are you feeling? Hope you're taking it easy

Fuck hope your appt goes well today and they can give you something else than Clomid!!

AFM still on progesterone, not feeling much different tbh but I guess that's good, should start on Clomid later this week... will keep you posted! Thanks Elles lovely, the wedding was great, so good to catch up with our old friends!!

Hello my lovelies,

Tata glad you had a fab weekend! Keeping fingers x for the clomid x

Mist.. How are you feeling? Hope you are doing ok x

Goodthings so pleased you stopped bleeding! Fingers x for weds!

Fcuk, how did you get on today?

So today has been an emotional roller coaster... I keep having waves of positivity then sheer despair.
So we were feeling positive after Saturday but basically they had all slowed down since then... The one that was in the lead on Saturday had arrested. So they said they would transfer 2 today, not blastocysts but the stage before...
30/40% of it working and 25% of it being twins... I keep panicking thinking they aren't blastocysts will they make it? But the odds are surely ok?
They are going to keep the rest going until tOmorrow to see if we can freeze any but they did reassure us that only 25% get any Frosties.
Going to get some acupuncture this afternoon to give our two embies the best chance possible!
Hugs xx

Hey all,
So exciting to hear everyone's good news. My appointment did not go so well. Had a tv scan to check ovaries and I have 2 20mm follies on one and lots of immature ones on the other so they want to do a back to basics type approach. She said that the follies look like I'm due to ovulate in the next 24 hours and Been told just try naturally this week and then in 6/8 weeks if I'm not pregnant they'll do some tubal due test thing and refer for traditional Ivf if my results are ok. Oh and also that we have to pay for the whole lot as our local care commission aren't authorising for anyone with a child already so that's put a slight damper on things- I knew we'd have to pay some but we were always given the impression it would be part funded. Feeling a little bit flat as I've literally hung on for that appointment for weeks 😔

Hi Fcuk, so sorry to hear about your appt, fingers x your follies get in line and you get pregnant in the next weeks. I know it's easier said than done but if you can at all try to forget about it for now and get some action going tonight / tomo!!

Elles keeping everything x for you too!! So is your next appt tomorrow? I don't know much about the process of IVF but surely they wouldn't transfer any if it didn't have a good chance to work!? Hope the acupuncture has made you feel better

Sending lots of hugs your ways xxx

Fcuk, sorry your appointment was disappointing :( they should've been clear about the funding. Good that you can try naturally this week! Were you hoping there would be something else you could try before going onto IVF? It was clomid you tried, wasn't it?

Those seem high odds Elles, doesn't sound much lower than blastocyst ones to me! (depending on woman's age etc). It's good that they're going to do the best they can with the embryos rather than risk ending up with none by trying to keep them going. Did they advise 2 because they're not day 5? or was that your choice? (or both)

AFM, trying to keep busy. Had a really nice weekend considering. (DH was a lot of help!)

Good luck for scan, Goodthings.

Hey Tata, Elles & Mist. There was always some confusion re funding as where we live straddles 2 counties and they have vastly different funding for ivf. Guess we chose the wrong one. I was hoping to at least have a go with maybe iui or different meds than Clomid. To be honest today's experience has highlighted how ignorant I am with regards to my options so I'm gonna follow Drs advice and dtd this week then research the living day lights out of it all. It was all just a bit anticlimactic....don't know what I expected really but hey ho.
Absolutely delighted for you Elles, keeping all crossed that they are sticky and you get your bfp xx

Helloooo, thank you for your kind thoughts and positivity!!!

Fcuk: sorry to hear about today... I am gutted to hear about the funding side of things too :( is it the laparoscopy or hsg for the tubes they are talking about? I had the laparoscopy which showed up my tubal problems but for many it seems to give things a kick start!!! In the meantime, lots of romantic nights in for you lady

Tata, so no more appointments for a while now! I am hoping my next one will be a viability scan which will show twins (positive mental attitude!) but we just call a week Friday when we have tested. I am sure we could test sooner but we both work weds/Thursday/fri am so the cunning plan is to do my sample first thing in the lovely pot they have provided, then to work, lunchtime we test then we have the afternoon with each other whatever the results. How was your day lovely?

Mist.. They actually suggested putting 2 back! We were originally told we couldn't at day 5 but I guess as they weren't quite where they should be that the chance of multiples is lower. Glad you had good weekend and dh being helpful :) almost there!

Goodthings you are almost there now!!!!

So last call tomorrow to update us on how the rest are looking at day 6 but I don't think they were too hopeful. My husband thinks I am going mad as I keep stroking and addressing my stomach, willing on our embies. Starting to feel more positive, thanks for your positive comments xxxxx

Hi ladies,

Elle's, got everything crossed all goes to plan for you, very exciting!

Mist - not long till you can test, also keeping everything crossed for you.

Fcuk - sorry to hear app didn't go too well.

Tata - not long till you start now

Sorry if I've forgotten anyone and hope you're all doing well, exciting few weeks coming up with a few of us! Xxx

Oh elles,i didn't understand from your post that you actually had your transfer! Sorry, hurray!! good luck! :)

I slept really badly (had to get up for a snack) and have woken up feeling quite sick :( maybe the 2 are related. So relieved I'm almost there. Anything I feel sets me worrying whether it's a good or bad sign or even all in my head! Argh!

Mist I'm sorry you didn't have a good night and are not feeling great hopefully you can get some rest today? Just a few more days before you can test, you've done the worst part lovely!!!

Elles I hadn't understood either, that's so great!!! Keeping everything x for a bfp!!! Your plan seems perfect, a romantic afternoon whatever the result, that sounds great

My days are... days at work really, I just love this time of year when the sun is still out but the days shorten, all I want to do is go home, bake some cakes and snuggle in front of a movie Perfect time to get some action going too It would be fab to get a bfp before Xmas but maybe I'm being over ambitious.. we shall see, more mulled wine for me if not!

I re read my message and I don't blame you for not understanding.. It was so garbled sorry!
Ah mist hope you are feeling better and resting up xx

Tata I love Autumn too :) hoping we all get BFPs before Christmas so we get summer bambinos!xx

Goodthings hope you are feeling ok for tomorrow xx

Fcuk hope you are ok xx

Thanks Elles just hoping bleed doesn't slow me down or cause any issues.

Did you get a call to see how others had got on? Xxx

I hope it all goes to plan xx

Oh yes :( they didn't make it :(
But I did double check what stage ours were at as was worried but she said early stage blastocyst so there is a chance!
Went back to work today... good distraction! Xxx