Starting ICSI in the New Year. Join me?

[Craftycakey15]

Hi all. I am currently ten days in to taking Microgynon to suppress my ovaries before we start the ICSI process right after my clinic opens in the New Year. I am 40 and my husband is 41. I have mild PCOS but was told that my greater egg count meant that we had about a 50% chance of conceiving in an ICSI cycle. Trying not to be scared and look forward to hopefully a positive outcome from this process. Anyone else starting ICSI soon? Good luck to us all and to all already on the journey. Let's share our positivity and all we are doing to take care of ourselves.

I had spotting and fresh blood on wiping from the day after embryo transfer for a few days then I told the clinic and they increased my progesterone to three pessaries a day. I did get it a few days before I tested positive again but it has now stopped. The most I ever had was a couple of times it was like a light bleed on my pad. I spoke to the fertility doctor who said it could be nothing. I won't know anything til I have a private scan in two weeks. You could be completely fine.

I tested this morning and it was negative. Sigh

Big hugs Mehmeh. Hope you and DH can be kind to yourselves. Thinking of you xxx

Very sorry to hear that MehMeh.

10w scan this morning showed our baby had gone. Missed miscarriage

Saw a beautiful heartbeat at 7+1 and 8+5 but at 10w scan today baby only measured 9+3 so it died mid/late last week. Utterly heartbroken.

Dr got me booked in as an emergency day case and did the ERPC early evening. Got his anaesthetist in specially. It's done. I'm home now.

Physically, I'm fine. Mostly I'm just numb. DH is utterly broken - we've sobbed and snotted all over each other.

Having the tissue testing done on the 'products of conception' to see if that will give us any answers, find out results and next steps in a few weeks when I see consultant for follow up

Much love to you all xxx

Oh I have just seen this post. I am so sorry Bananafish! How devastated you must be. I hope you can take some time to grieve for the baby and have a complete break from it. People like us who have struggled to get pregnant and/or had previous miscarriages have a hard time even when we get pregnant. I know I refuse to believe I am and am convinced it is going to go wrong. You can start to believe it is never going to happen but you must challenge that belief. I wish you as good a recovery as possible. X

Thanks Crafty. I've posted about the epic saga of fuck ups that happened at the hospital for my ERPC on the 'mindnumbing boredom of infertility' thread. It's all been a fairly shitty week, in summary!!

Remember that just because this happened to me and others doesn't mean it will happen to you

IVF pregnancies don't have any higher miscarriage rates than the general population. The only difference is very early miscarriages and chemical pregnancies tend to be picked up earlier with IVF because we have to test earlier, rather than just thinking our period is a couple of days late (and never knowing we were briefly pregnant).

But you are pregnant and there is every reason you will have a beautiful bubba in 9 months time! X