Starting IVF/ICSI this month - anyone want to join the journey?

[Rumplestrumpet]

After over 2.5 years TTC, we're FINALLY about to start our fertility treatment this month (ICSI). My nurse and husband forbade me from chats and forums, but after following MN threads over recent years I think it would be a great help to share the experience with those going through the same thing.

Anyone else want to share the joys/terrors of belly injections, hormonal madness and a series of medical professionals poking around your nether regions?! And, of course, hopefully a BFP at the end of it all

Thanks lildottie. The one good thing that results from IVF (other than a baby!) is the fact that I really notice I don't allow myself to get stressed out by things like the messy things my DS does or the late nights. I went out with my sister for dinner and she was so stressed when her kids wouldn't sit still. I just think 'this may be the only child I will ever have - I don't want to waste time stressing'. So it gives you an extra level of appreciation just that they exist in your life that those who easily conceive have no understanding of.

Alright, I've decided I'm getting a blood test tomorrow/day 28 and have an appointment booked Friday for the results. So Friday I will be back here to reveal all... it's either going to be good news or a long long whinge, rant and cry!

I've got everything crossed for you shell

I'm back from my little trip and I was very much hoping to see a BFP for Shellster ! I'm dying to find out, and it's certainly positive that there's still no sign of AF. Like everyone else I have every finger and toe crossed for you, really hoping this will be your time.

I can understand the "why not me?" thoughts, and would probably be thinking the same. But I agree with Lildottie that we're all in strong positions, and the high positive results is a reminder that it does work, it does happen, and we can have a family.

Thinking of you all

shell I was saying something similar to dh the other day, that we will appreciate our child more for what we've been through. nice to hear someone say its true!

rumples hope your trip went well.

I'm currently trying to decide whether we can move house next year and if we should get 3 or 4 bed. difficult when you don't know if you'll have 1, 2 or zero children!

Hi girls

SIS and Pipelle went fine on Tuesday, womb, ovaries etc all looking fine no fibroids or other nasties so that was a huge relief!

Started suprecur injections Tuesday evening and they were no where near as bad as I thought they would be. Have had headaches and the hot flushes started during the night but all in all not too bad.

Also survived an all day wedding yesterday with just one small glass of red wine and copious glasses of mineral water!

Hope you are all ok xxx

shell any period show? How you feeling? x

shell any news? hope all OK and your just busy.

Welcome back Rumples.

Thank you all for thinking of me and asking after me.

Well, no BFP yet, but no BFN either. Today is day 29 of my cycle so I did a test this morning and it came back -ive. But I have had a feeling in my uterus on and off from day 24 that I can only describe as a 'pregnant feeling' rather than a 'my period is arriving' feeling. I never get that before AF so the alternative is a pregnancy.

anroga, glad the procedure and injections were both not at all as bad as you were worried they would be. So it's all systems go for you now.

Yes lil, there's a beautiful song on youtube about infertility and how she wouldn't mind the 2am call... she'd be right down the hall'. Made me cry.

Okay, so with my home tests being negative and no period to confirm either way, I am patiently waiting for my official blood test on Monday for a definite answer!

Oh shell - thinking of you. come back if there is any news either way. Are you going to test every day if no period shows? How many days past ET are you now? Do you think it should be showing on home test?
x

Oh shell it's so tough. Thinking of you and really hoping you'll be set for the best Christmas present.

Anroga pleased to hear it's going well for you so far.

Lildottie - I'd go for the big house and be determined to fill it with babies, one way or another! But that's just me (and I'd LOVE to be able to buy a 4 bed house somewhere I actually wanted to live - congrats!)

Btw, any news from Nutty and the possible twins?! I think your next scan is coming up, hope all is well.

Lildottie - my DH were living in a 1 bed for six years and last Feb we moved into our 4 bed detached (obviously with no children) but the house I would say is just right for us whether it stays just us two or we do finally get our little miracle.

I think you'd be surprised at how quickly a very large house seems to just fit your life.

Good Luck house hunting!!

rumple that's so sweet of you to remember about my scan. It's on Monday morning. I'm trying not to slowly go mad!!
I just hope whatever has happened that I still have at least one in there. But I still have no symptoms, so trying not to think the worst.
Hope you are feeling ok? You must be nearly 11 weeks now? Nearly time for the 12 week scan!

Glad to hear you're ok Nutty. Yes, I'm nearly 11 weeks and still have ZERO symptoms - my MW told me she had 2 pregnancies with no symptoms so not to worry. The only mild symptom I have is being very tired but that might just be laziness. So just enjoy the lack of symptoms while it lasts!! I have my 12 week scan just before NYE, and then I think we'll FINALLY be able to tell everyone. But I won't relax until I see it for myself - last time it just looked like a blob, so I'm hoping it'll look more human this time!

I agree with the blob thing!! The nurse gave me a scan pic but it's still two blobs!! (One very very small one)
I do feel shattered by the evening so maybe that's my symptom?
I can't wait until I hopefully get to 12 weeks. This secrecy is killing me!!

Totally with you nutty hate the waiting want my first scan so I feel a bit more like it's real. I have so symptoms so far either apart from really tired and hungry. Maybe it's due to being pumped with hormones so long our bodies have already adjusted. I must say I'm really nervous about my early scan I think because it's been such a journey to get here the thought of it going wrong now is horrendous. Still given what we have all gone through to get this far I know we will all make no matter what the outcome.

Good luck for Monday fx it will be good news and a fabulous early Christmas present x

You're right Whittle - we're tough as old boots and we'll get through whatever is thrown at us.

Fingers crossed for you both - and everyone on this thread. We'll get there eventually.

You'll defo see something more baby like at your 12 week. I felt as sick as a dog by then. I remember just weeping because I felt constantly sick and it was so draining. Sickness didn't go till about 16 or 17 weeks so I reckon if you haven't got it now, you've had a lucky escape. Most of those symptoms dissipate after about 3 months. Even the tiredness gets better. 2nd trimester is really nice plus it'll be spring time so you'll be full of joys!!!

Think I had ovulation this week as loads of EWCM so we've done it every other day since sat (which is actually only 3 times Need to whack one out tonight, but I'm not sure I can be bothered. Had so much pain and movement in my uterus this week, it's been a bit weird. Can't believe I'm doing the 2ww again now in a natural cycle. Just don't know whether I'm coming or going. At least this 2ww is over Xmas so time should go a bit quicker.

Shell ! Can't stop thinking about you.

rumple not sure we will be able to get the mortgage yet as we are both self employed but fx!

faroz we felt like our 2bed was massive when we moved from our 1bed flat, but now its jammed full so I imagine we'd find a way to fill 2extra bedrooms OK!

shell got everything crossed for you. keep us updated!

I'm interested to hear about so many of you with no symptoms. It makes me feel more hopeful or when I go through our next round!

I'm loving being back in England with my family (apart from MrSmidge of course) but it's another reminder that I'm not already pregnant, as I'd been hoping my trip back this Christmas would be one where I could spend my time in mothercare/opening Christmas presents that would be good for decking out a nursery! Hey ho.

I've just picked up a prescription from my doctor for the 5mg folic acid - she knew I was undertaking IVF in aus, so was fine about it. Still find it surprising that it's over the counter there but script only here. So now my daily vitamin intake is a multivit, big folic, 3 tablets of calcium, and alternating 2 then 1 tablet of CoQ10. Think I'm rattling!

Shell I saw some posts from you earlier today on other thread so am v sorry to hear your news, especially after you were so convinced your body was exhibiting pregnancy symptoms.

oh shell, I searched for your posts after reading smidges post. be kind to yourself and try to enjoy Christmas. you are incredibly strong so I know you'll be OK but take all the time you need to grieve. we'll be here if you need to rant.

can't remember if anyone else was on bcp before starting long protocol like me but I gave a question. I have just realised I don't know when/if to expect "AF" when I start buserelin injections. I assumed I would from what I'd read but actually haven't been told! how is it different to normal and how long should bleeding last etc? any info gratefully received!

Yes, I posted on the other post this morning but being at work, have just had the chance to come back now and post here. I was so convinced I was pregnant, and I really believe the embryo did start to implant as I had a pregnant feeling in my uterus on and off for 5 days. It wasn't my period feeling and even if it was, my period normally shows up straight after the period cramping. But this feeling was not followed by my period. And then my cycle was the longest it has ever been - even longer than when I have taken the progesterone after my two previous failed transfers. Then last night I got the usual pre period feeling, followed by blood. But I am sure it is an early miscarriage and that the embryo did start to implant. I have to have a blood test Monday as per my IVF clinic, so perhaps that will show a small trace of hCG hormone. Just want it over with and for this period to go away so I can forget it.

I want to try again soon as I believe my fertility is declining faster than someone my age. At 37, I am getting less eggs than most others who are older than me. But I am in debt from this IVF so it's going to take some time to repay my credit card and then save again.

Going on holidays on Monday so I probably won't be checking in while I'm away. Nutty, I know your scan is Monday but I will be on a train with no internet, but will be with you in thought.

Oh,, and with allchat in mind getting a natural BFP after her failed IVF, I already calculated my ovulation to make sure I'd be back from my holiday in time to be home with DH and do the deed! Has has dud sperm and this has never worked after our previous failed IVF's, but it's the only hope I have at the moment, so one must try.

Jesus Christ Shell. I am beyond gutted for you. How shit life is sometimes. You are really brave and what you have written shows your complete inner strength. I truly hope you manage to have happy holidays and that 2015 is your year.
I'll look out for you in the new year. And yes keep banging! You just never know especially if it is an early chemical.
Bless you hon. Take care of yourself xx

Hi everyone, I know I'm a bit late to this thread but can I join in!? Just found out last month that dh has zero sperm, very low testosterone (7) and all the wrong hormone levels. I've not had any fertility tests yet as only been ttc for 10 months. Anyway if they find any spermys in there will likely have this icsi type of ivf I think so hoping to learn some info and gain some faith off hearing about your journeys :)