Hi ladies,
I've posted on the mc threads a few times but I'm not on here very often. Usually in the mc thread.
Me and DH are both 34 and have been trying for baby #1 for over five years. I've had two mcs following successfully fertility treatment this year and I'm just crumbling apart now.
I've tried all I can to accept that I can't be a mum but it's impossible for me to fathom. It's something I wanted so so bad and now morbid thoughts occupy my brain for much of my waking day. What else can I do with my life now?
How do you come to terms with "the cards you've been dealt"? I can barely find the strength to get out of bed every day let alone be positive about my chances of having a good life.
Sorry if this sounds dramatic but it's how I feel and I need to get it off my chest. I daren't tell my GP for fear it will go on medical record and jeopardise adoption chances for the future. Feel so lonely :(
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