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Run out of tears. Positive stories & UnMN hug DESPERATELY needed please

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ilikecooking · 30/03/2013 06:44

Does anyone have a positive story to share with me please?

Battled with & overcome eating disorder of 32 years to be fit enough to have a happy healthy pregnancy which on its own took all my strength, willpower & every ounce of emotion out of me.

I've left it so late that the ultrasound for IVF egg collection has showed I only have one follicle. As if that isn't bad enough, it's so small that they think it doesn't contain any eggs.

I'm so stupid. If I'd have dealt with the eating disorder sooner rather than bury it I would have been ok. Previous tests from a decade showed that.

Does anyone have any experience of conceiving via egg donation? Or do you have any positive stories about conception from only one follicle?

Or even if you have a spare unMN hug going. Every time I think I've run out of tears, the waterfalls start again.

Hope you are having a happy Easter with lots of good eggs.xx

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HousewifeFromHeaven · 18/04/2013 09:24

Your story will be an inspiration to many ill bet!

rabbitonthemoon · 18/04/2013 10:47

Wow! Congratulations!! SmileSmileSmile

DomesticCEO · 18/04/2013 18:08

Yay!!!!!!!! Grin

Single embryos rock Grin.

atara · 18/04/2013 18:11

Many congratulations! Really pleased for you!!!

QOD · 18/04/2013 18:38

Yay!!

PointlessCow · 18/04/2013 21:31

Wow! That is fantastic news! So pleased for you Smile

PacificDogwood · 18/04/2013 21:38

Congratulations! Grin
I am so pleased for you.

Very, very best of luck for the rest of your pregnancy x.

OpheliasWeepingWillow · 18/04/2013 22:00

Woot!

essexmumma · 18/04/2013 22:18

Massive congrats!!! You DID itGrinGrin

Andcake · 18/04/2013 22:24

That's amazing! Congratulations heres is to a happy and healthy 9 months. So v happy or you
X

SoulTrain · 19/04/2013 06:51

Congratulations cooking! Wishing you all the very best for your pregnancy xxxx

Happiestinwellybobs · 19/04/2013 13:17

Congratulations - that is amazing news :)

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ilikecooking · 20/04/2013 19:18

Thankyou all for your kind words. I KNEW MN was the place to come to for help Smile

Despite saying the words "I am expecting a baby" it's not ringing true at all. Due to have ultrasound in 2 weeks to see if baby has moved & to see & hear heartbeat. I suddenly feel incredibly grown up.....and incredibly privileged.

I wish everyone that struggles could have a happy ending. Life is cruel sometimes.

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ilikecooking · 21/04/2013 18:27

Just to let you know the doctors think I am miscarrying. Heavy blood loss & blood tests results have 95% confirmed it.

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PacificDogwood · 21/04/2013 18:34

Oh no, ilikecooking, I am so sorry to read this Sad.
I hope you have good RL support, but here is a virtual [hug] anyway.
Much love and strength.

rabbitonthemoon · 21/04/2013 19:43

Sad hang in there cooking. I'm sorry you're going through this and I hope it has a good outcome. Hug to you.

Happiestinwellybobs · 21/04/2013 19:44

I am so sorry - sending you lots of love and strength to get through this :(

DomesticCEO · 21/04/2013 19:45

Oh, ilike, that is tooo cruel Sad.

Also sending you virtual hugs xxx

essexmumma · 21/04/2013 19:49

I'm so sorrySad how devastating for you. Virtual hugs xx

QOD · 21/04/2013 20:35

Sorry, so infar

lozster · 21/04/2013 22:46

It is so unfair for you. So sad. There is a part of me that is always angry when i hear of what some women go through. There is mo justice in any of this. Keep on posting here - it may be the end of this cycle but you will find the strength to go on.

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ilikecooking · 24/04/2013 07:41

Incredibly traumatic few days. 4 doctors all at the same time trying to get blood from me to test, in the end they took it without the usual plastic canuler (sp) & went into my wrist with a 2inch needle. Took them so long to withdraw blood that the top bod told us to tell the parking attendant his name so we didn't have to pay any more for the space. The NHS really did look after me very well.

I couldn't leave the toilet without having a mop & bucket to hand, it was a real haemorrhage, pouring black clots.

I have to take a preg test tomorrow to confirm its negative.

My parents are away for a fortnight so are oblivious and they will just be so distraught when they find out they weren't here for me. BUT they always, always made it known they never wanted to know of any negative situation as there's nothing they can do.

Such a mess......literally.

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QOD · 24/04/2013 08:00

Oh how horrible. You poor thing

PacificDogwood · 25/04/2013 22:32

Still thinking of you x.

I hope you are, at least physically, recovering.

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ilikecooking · 26/04/2013 13:13

Thankyou xx

GP completely understands why I don't want to do more blood & urine preg tests. He agrees that it will physically & mentally hurt me & there is nothing to be gained from re-testing.

The one saving grace (looking on the + side) is that as s/he was so small, there are no loose floaty bits that need surgically removing.

The one bit of the cycle that didn't use drugs, the only part of the whole conception that happened naturally. I can't even get that right. Sad

Have to attend an obligatory grievance counselling session....I'm right back at where I was all those years ago with the grieving. Ugh.

Hence the title of the thread.....

Thankyou once again for your support.
x

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