I never thought I could ever consider terminating a pregnancy, having had two full term pregnancies one ending in a neonatal death at 30 mins and the other a fresh stillbirth.
I then had a normal, albeit fraught pregnancy and delivery.
My fourth pregnancy I was ill throughout.
After the birth, the baby was ill and I had few resources physically and mentally. When she was 10 weeks old I missed a period!
The thoughts of having to cope with another disastrous pregnancy and at the same time care for a sick baby and an older child changed my wiew on termination of pregnancy. Despite having a very supportive husband I could not have continued with the pregnancy.
I wasn't pregnant, my cycle had just gone haywire,
I viewed termination differently from then.
As a midwife I have nursed quite a few ladies having terminations for fetal abnormalities, and no matter what the gestation, it is traumatic.