Tuesday FLY

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Evening all

Just wrote a big thread and then lost it
Weather was lovely here today, got the washing dry outside. Think i might suffer from the SAD(?), I always feel s omuch better as soon as the sun appears.
Got to the park pm, dd behaved perfectly , ds has definately hit the terrible two's since starting t owalk properly on thursday.
Got abit of FLYing done today me and dd cleaned the bathroom and swept the carpet. She is getting quite house proud, notices every speck of dirt and tells me to wipe it
Bianca i think you cope really well with everything.
Janni glad DS1 had a good day at his new school, bet that's a big relief.

Am going to watch the rest of bionic women, will put the rest of the drying up away in the morning

Hello again

Bloody Hell TMH Hope the pain has stopped

Got to the end of the day in one piece. Sadly Ed nearly didn't. The silly boy stepped out onto a zebra crossing and the silly driver didn't stop luckily he saw her and jumped off before any harm was done [phew]. I had to have severe words with him when we got home, honestley 3 rta near misses in 18 months is just ridiculous really.

Made a dozen peanut butter cookies and the meatballs. The cookies are just crazy cookies with peanut butter added with the flour, the meatballs were just so simple to do. Ed helped with the making and cooking of them. They were so scrummy. Not bad for a 1st attempt and we don't even use Sainsbury's. (it was Ms Lawson's recepie anyway)

Lets see what tomorrow brings

tmh your boys are gorgeous
grouchy that sounds terrifying, I'm glad he's ok.

Oh, GO I'm glad Ed is ok.

Bianca - I see what you mean, now. I thought you hadn' told anyone in rl. There are definitely friends and friends, and you shouldn't feel you have to explain yourself to everyone. Glad you have a bit of rl support outside the family, though. Keep on remiding yourself of all the progress you've made.

Sorry, guys, I intended to do a longer post, but months of wearing out of date glasses seems to be catching up with me, and I'm struggling to read my own post, so I'm going o go to bed. NN all.

Bianca I'm not sure what it is that's affecting you, but I used to get a really bad stomach whenever I was nervous about anything. I ended up not being able to be more than five minutes from a toilet, and it was very debilitating. If what you're going through is anything similar, I totally understand and sympathise!

My list:

babystep done
do dishes done
ironing
put wash load on
vacuum living room
paint shed done
buy rose petals for photo done
go to filming done
admin stuff done

I'll put a wash on before I go to bed, but it's too late to vacuum I'll just have to put my feet up and do some knitting.

Hi All

Just a quick Hello

I`m so tired.

Bianca Your life sounds a lot like mine is.
DS1 was home for the weekend and he was a real pain all the time he was here. He tried everything he could try I think. He was also on a break from him meds which seems to make things worse then they were before.

I am also the same as you. I hate going out I get so worked up about going i go ill. It took a while for me to get used to going to the hospital for myself and seeing DS1`s doctor was so nerve racking. I will be sweating, shaking, I go white, I feel sick. I dont even like to use the phone. I rather stay at home than go out because I end up feeling really ill if I have to go out. Before the social workers said I should just get out and I will soon become used to going out and once I make new friends I would be OK. They even said that XP2 was stopping me from going out and meeting new friends. They just would not take it that it was "ME" not wanting to go out and I still dont. It is made even harder because I get so tired when I go out.

I might try and get some help once I have sorted things for DS1. He needs to come first. But even the thought of going somewhere to get help for me is worrying for me. It will get worse once something starts to get sorted and I have to go for the first time.

So you are not alone Bianca and I know how its gets you so down. I sometimes think I will get on and do things without worrying. I go to do it and fall apart before I even get really to go.

I`m off to bed now. I feel I could sleep for a week but I know I will be lucky if I get 4 hours sleep.

See you all soon

HN xxxx

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