i identified with alot...made me think of my OCD habit of not touching raw meat.... not letting the packaging touch the bin lid etc as i throw it out...using tongs to hold the meat whilst i cut it with sciccors (never a Knife)...and if i do touch it - how i have to turn the tap on with my wrist (yeaH!!! i know how to complicate things!!!) and how then when i have thourougly washed my hands how i then have to wash over the tap handle too.
thankfully...that is only when i handle raw meat!!!!
additionally...if any blood or raw meat touches anything that it shouldnt... the bleach comes out...and i have a niggling worry that someone will be ill....and don't relax till at least the next morning...looking out for sickness/diarohea etc!
the bit i identified with was when the 'loo lady' had touched the tiolet bowl...and they asked her how she felt about touching her hair and face etc...and she hesitated...then they asked her what she was thinking...and she said she was being 'told' to touch her hair etc as they wanted her too..in effect not because she wanted to...that is like the renumerating thoughts that the bloke has...I get the same problem...it's like a conversation between the 'good and the bad'...my psychologist visulised it as tlike a cartoon when there is an angel on 1 shoulder and a devil on the other.....once i get caught in that cycle of thoughts it is like they pointed out - far worse than the actuall percieved result of doing what you feel you MUST not do.
Hiope this makes sense!
Next weeks programme certainly looks more insightful into how they REALLY are...as they are at home...the mum who had the panick attacks looks absolutely dreadful in the clip...i really want her to triumph.
the glitter could be as simple as a reminder of a greeting card that had glitter on it...or it was christmas...anything that links her back to her miscarriage.
My psychologist did CBT with me for 2 years...though i am not diagnosed with OCD..she agreed i had many behaviours...and one of you said about how the danger is that you conquer 1 OCD problem- to replace it with another- that is certainly my problem- i go from cutting my hairto bingeeating- to weighing myself ever few minutes- to bleaching - to moving furniture etc....she says that my behaviour is common in people that the 'root problem' has not been identified.