Hey I took it for nearly 5 years been off it now for 4 months since the husband and i split, I must say it left me numb, not being able to show or feel emotion, left me with a "F**k it" attitude for a long time, now after 4 months off the tablets I feel me again, in my opinion it masked the symtoms of anxiety and depression instead of me dealing with the cause.
I would never ever take antidepressants again, however it does help, the tablets enabled me to work and get on with day to day stuff.My DC are so glad to have a mum back that has feelings an shows emotion.
The side effects I found were very short lived, excessive yawning, tiredness and dizziness if I didnt take a tablet.
my advice is to set yourself a target, a time limit, discuss the dose with your GP, I went from 5mg to 20mg when things got really bad, but the issues I faced didn't go away.
You are not weak, in fact you are very strong in looking for a way out, manage the treatment with your GP. Lot's of luck...