Alas poor cigarette, I knew you well

[mummylonglegs]

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Still sweating tonight...hows everyone? cant believe you didnt come back last night

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I did dort of think that as i post and look back and theres nothing..then the next night when i dont even look you have all been here nattering...typical luck I suppose.
Been on the bus since 8.20 this morning, it got stuck behind a dustcart so Tasha was late for school and I didnt get beck here till 10...sigh.....like steaming sardines we were.

ok good things all round. i did smoke on my visit to my home town and i hated it - i went out got slightly drunk and still hated it.

i have asthma. i have noticed an improvement but attached not a lot of cudos to it when i stopped - however when i had a few fags on saturday -sunday was bad and it brought back allthose memories of not being able to breath right.

my hubby smokes cigars now instead of fags about 2 a day and he stinks - i cant stand it, whereas before i wouldnever have noticed it.

also - amnotposting on here every day

and finally the thing that spurred me to post. just had something to eat and got the "urge" for a fag with my lovely coffee, when i realised the last time i thought about a fag was when i woke up and it hasn't occured to me in between

how is everyone else doing?

Hullo all!

Glad to hear it's going well, custardo! Good on ya

I seem to be in a pit of ex-smokers despair - almost constant nagging feeling of wanting to smoke but not letting myself. I think the weekend's lapse has had a really nasty effect on me. Like, oh well, I smoked, may as wel smoke some more. Pants, really.

Plus, my younger brothers have gone to Glastonbury today, and it's making me hanker after the good ole days when I used to smoke, aand blah de blah de blah

Still, I haven't smoked since the evening I got drunk. And I haven't got drunk either, which is all good.

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Hello! It is dead round here, hope everyones fine...I am nearly 7 MONTHS OH MY F*ING GAWD.
Really chuffed with myself, I must say that as each day passes it gets easier and easier and easier and there is no craves/wants/thought/desires and now even...oh I dont smoke thoughts are, i think, days apart
Its excellent and the only way to get to this point is by not smoking. The further I get away from fags the finer the feeling is! I said to my mum something like id rather set myself on fire than smoke.

P.S not pissed and drooling, perfectly sober and

Well done, cc! How I long to be in the same position [feeling sorry for herself emoticon]

You've probably said this before (and I've probably asked) but I have a memory like a fishing net, did you have any lapses along the way?

Oh yes, 1 million and one lapses for a good couple of years, on fags for a week off them for a day smoke for a day, abstain for a month..LOADS. And all I really wanted was to STOP smoking, not keep starting again and again and again and finally, my very thick brain has worked out I CANNOT SMOKE not even a weeny half wet dogend, or I will end up back on the fags.
No lapses since last november. Not even a hefty whiff of someone elses fags

Dont slip up and you will be in this position

Dont feel sorry for yourself BTW, feel happy that your in a postiton to be looking back at fags, not stuck right in the middle of a filthy ashtray wondering when your going to have the courage to try

You're an inspiration cc!!!!!!!!!! xx

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I smoked for years without even contemplating stopping (told you I was thick!) but when I started wanting to stop and kept failing I HATED that fag first thing in the morning that I knew would lead to me smoking for the rest of the day, the one that Id said to myself I wouldnt smoke the night before.......ewwwwwwww. It was like a noose round my neck.

Hello Fiona, what up up to? Steering clear of the old fags I hope

5 mins to spare? Read this

can totally relate to this dude

Remebr this when your gonna cry coz its just too hard..

Nothing wrong with bawling. Just remember to replenish yourself with plenty of water!
You're healing. Yahoooooooooooooo!

Laughed when I read that!

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Hello girls, went to the pub last night and was surrounded by a good 25/30 smokers and only about 5 people werent constantly scratching thier itch. Rolled a few fags for dp, as there was a void when not beer guzzling. Happily survived and was ratarsed by the time we got home. Think my mum was embarrased as she left right away as i was just sitting on the sofa saying OMG im pissed
Wheres whymummy? Are you joining us again yet?

Right, I messed up again. After another drunken argument. And so soon after the last time, I feel incapable of success.

Am leaving you for now, don't wanna bring you down with my constant whingeing and failures.

Good luck to all, and hope to find you again later.

Oh EM your slip ups are nothing in compared to mine, please dont go, or if you do just go for a few days and come back rough and ready to try again. It really is hard work but its worth it in the end, and we are not just here when your successful we are here regardless.
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well put cc!

Evansmummy - sometimes I've felt too ashamed to come on here, or worried that I'll 'infect' the others with my lack of willpower and failure, but it's only through the support here that I've managed lengthy fag free spells, even though have had a few lapses lately.

Have been back on straight and narrow for a couple of days. Sitting chatting with dh when he's smoking late at night is my weakpoint, and now I take a big fat 2mg lozenge (which feels REALLY powerful, not v plesant actually, kinda peppery) in place of the 1mg lozzies I suck during the day.

We're going to france on thur night. Last year I was determined to go there fag free, and ballsed it up. This year I so wanna have a 'clean' hol!

Please keep dropping in on here, evansmummy, you'll know when you're ready to quit and sick to death of ciggies, & we'll be here for you.

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Yep...and if we only stayed around when we were succeding (someone teach me to spell!) then anyone reading would get the idea that its all hunky dorey and easy peasy which it most certainly isnt.
Its a long hard slog but you DO get to a point where you are bigger and better and stronger than your addiction and it YOU thats in control making all the moves to stay free.
The thing is, I think, we are brainwashed into thinking its only a fag, its not as bad some other things we could be doing, and maybe its not. Buts its souldestroyingly addictive and it twists your thoughts big time...knocks your confidence becuase you can feel the nosse round your neck and you cant break free....................OR SO IT SEEMS.
You will and you can.

am just gonna pop by 2mg 'biggie'!

Agree totally, mll (not mml). Am sitting here working, gonna have a nice hot soaky bath soon, that helps with cravingS massively, I think.

The thought of shooing the children away in the evenings on holiday - 'go play in the garden!' - while me and dh chuff our heads off is too depressing to contemplate. Smoking is, I think, depressing. Tried to go for a run today and could feel the shit in my lungs from recent lapses.

WHERE IS MINKMAMA? IS SHE EVER COMING BACK?