psychomum finally got to the docs about heartburn issues..............................

[PsychoGuyFawkesMum]

.....and I am now on mepradec for the next month and will then be being referred for investigations if it comes back once I stop.

tis either gastric reflux disease, or maybe an ulcer.

or......could all just be stress...not surprising really with all everything going on with me right now!

oh, slightly uncomfortable.......he asked me if I take supplements etc, and I said that I take vitamins and St. Johns Wort. he asked me why the St.Johns wort.........how do I explain that without sounding insane......he said he knows that many women take it instead of coming and asking for AD's......am I in need....was very hard that bit.

hey ho, am seeing him in just over a month to see how the heartburn meds go, and guess we will see.

oh, and to add to the slightly insane issue.......completely mixed up my smear dates. was this morning, and I rang the surgery this morning asking about my appointments this week, and still forgot to go.

I think he thinks my mind is melting!

So, why do you take St John's Wort?

lol cali

I take st.johns wort as I do have quite strong mood swings (PMT normally sets me off, but I also get stressed about my mother), and I feel it keeps me more on an even keel.

I am not depressed, I know that......I do feel low but it is not all the time, and not in any way so low I can;t see the way clear, IYGWIM, and so I don;t feel as tho I need AD's (if that makes sense).

Thought the punchline was that you're pregnant!

Sorry about the reflux...

doc actually asked me that.......but then agreed that it would be world news if so considering DH has had the snip and I have the mirena coil for severe endometriosis.

would be mighty interesting if I did fall pregnant.......would love to see DH's face!

How can I put this? Erm, my DP had this and has just been diagnosed with hiatus hernia, apparently due to being overweight.
Apologies if out of order.

no, that would not be my problem.

as trying hard to keep above 9st at the moment.......multiple allergies and a fear of eating when I am alone mean I have lost 1.5st in the last year!

oh, plus stress from a car accident last october.......I can;t eat when stressed either.

I've had a hiatus hernia, and wasn't overweight Katch. Was vomiting after every meal though.

Lol, thought you were going to say you were pregnant too. (my mother thought I was heartburn until she was 15 weeks pregnant apparently!)

Well at least you got seen to and you'll have some comfort for a while.

to hear about your fear of eating.
I've been there in the past, so I know how you feel.

(Tentatively) All these words like 'stress,' 'fear,' 'mood swings,' point to one thing - depression. Just because you're not crying and consciously feeling miserable all day doesn't mean you can't be depressed.
It doesn't mean you're insane and your gp certainly won't think so.

yes, i had a fear of eating as a teenager

it's horrible

NBG, how did you get past the fear then?? sorry you have been there too, tis a horrid feeling.

katch, you think so? I have been on AD's in the past, for what turned out to be PTSD in the end, and I don;t feel anywhere near that awful now so just figured I was just normal stressed mum.......((with an admitted huge issue with my mother and aunt which does knock me))

I was in my early teens so I can't remember how I exactly came out of it.

I know it started because I choked on some meat when I was away on a girl guide holiday
I was ok for a week or so after but then I started to worry that I might choke everytime I eat, so I just stopped eating.
I just remember one particular day and my parents were ordering a takeaway. I couldn't resist so I got some and ate the lot.
It was like someone had turned a switch on me.

I have other fears now. Tis great, if its not one thing its another but I've been there more than once in the past and got through it and I am determined to do it again.

Are you getting any help with it?
I know you were seeing someone about your crash.

everytime I ate, not eat

wow, my experience was so similar Nbg

choked (severly) on an orange, then spent 6 months terrified that i would choke again

had to have help 'learning' how to eat solid food again
sorry for hijack Pyscho

Oh my god!
Really?!!

I have never ever known of anyone having the same experience.
I have with other anxieties (that makes me sound like a right nut job) but never the eating one.

Do you still struggle now?

keep us updated psycho. I've had acid for 20 years and live on rennie.

yup, I am having CBT at the moment....started about the crash, but a few weeks back got a bit bigger as I admitted about my childhood, so she started honing in on that too.

have not been back for 3 weeks tho......everything got rather intense and I was struggling, and then DS1 was ill so I have to cancel, and just never made another appointment....altho then DS1 had his accident with the tree and his head, and I had to see my mother, so my energy was not up to CBT aswell IYGWIM.

am back tomorrow tho

I can eat, but only very very safe food that I know I have no reason to react to.....poached egg is more than often the choice, but normally when I am alone I survive on coffee (altho I realise that black coffee is not helping the heartbun).

scary for you tho with the choking....

Thats great that your getting all out now and I think your really brave for keeping on with it.
I found it very very hard.

I take it you have allergies then?

Nbg

I am ok usually, although i panic sometimes if i eat, say, apples, that the skin will get lodged in my throat, but i can snap out of it usually

i don't eat oranges if i,m alone in the house

yes.....

started off with 'just' milk, and an oral reaction to apples.

am now anaphylactic to apples and other tree fruits, badly allergic to all dairy (bar eggs), and also house dustmite, tree pollen, grass pollen, cats/dogs/rabbits, and as of the last appointment........nuts and make-up

oh, and filter coffee, but am ignoring that one for now as I am in need of some light relief

it was me going into allergic shock from having a smoothie that has made me scared!

Yes I was the same with apples!!!
But I kepton eating them, more when I wasn't on my own but I made myself eat them and I got there in the end.

Good job really as I had a huge apple craving with my first pregnancy

Oh blimey!
Not much then

But make up!!!!

I know.....

am seriously missing the make-up

I can hunt down hypo-allergenic stuff in a month tho, or just suffer as and when I do wera it.

I did for halloween.......eyes were dreadful, and was all my fault for being vain

What about all that mineral make up? Isnt that hypo allergenic?