Please help, i cant take anymore

[loopylou6]

I cant stop crying this morning, am scared am having a breakdown or something, i posted on monday about a bit of blood in my stool, was taking anti inflammatorys at the time and had a bit of red blood in my stool,along with stomach cramps that felt like labour pains, i went to see the nurse prescriber and she thought it was the medication (diclofenac) so she took me off them and said it should clear in a week but if tis still there after a week to come back for more investigations (she also checked for piles and couldnt see any). So i have had my head stuck down the toilet every morning checking, tursday therew as a small bit wednesday i dont think was any and yesterday i didnt think there was any, today i went and its normal colour but with a few full stop sized bits of bright red blood surely the medication could not be causing that still? Im convinced i have bowel cancer even though im only 25. Then to top it off i took dd to school and at the bottom of our garden there is a dip where the rain collects so i carried her over that to save her shoes getting wet and i slipped, we both fell and she cut her nose and has a fat top lip and i twisted my ankle which was even more painful as thats the ankle i have tendonitis in, im constantly crying, the council have just been to fix something and i couldnt stop crying whilst they where here, i feel so helpless and down and i dont know what to do

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lou, sorry you are feeling so crappy. i really don't think yo uneed to worry too much about the blood as there are many causes and it is fairly common, but it must be checked. Polyps are very common and cause bleeding from the anus or it could even be a small fissure. I have one and it is almost impossible to see, apparently! Also, the fact it is bright blood suggests it is fresh which is a good thing.
Are you worried about anything else?

Loopylou, first darling have some hugs {{{}}}
Then make sure you have something to EAT. This sounds like I feel when I haven't eaten much and my blood sugar is low - tearful and everything hopeless. Eating will help.
Thirdly, red blood is not bowel cancer, that would be dark, blackish blood. So you're Ok there

I hope that helps a little xx

I have health anxiety which i had therapy for and felt id really climbed the ladder, but this has just knocked me right back down and i feel so awful for falling with dd, i have practically planned my funeral i know im being unreasonable but i cant seem to help myself

Thats how i feel flight, copmpletely hopeless and i just cant stop crying, god i sound pathetic, maybe i should of namechanged

You sound lovely and very upset and you really need some tea and cake

Health anxiety is horrid and not your fault. Nobody thinksyou are pathetic!

It's a shitty day here in flight country too, some days are just too much, honestly you'd think someone up there would get a grip and give you a break!

Did the council fix the thing they came to fix?

lou, has anything happened to bring on your health anxiety?
Also, when anyone recovers from an anxiety disorder, it is common to have occassional steps back., It doesn't mean yo uare going backwards. It is part of the process. Try to tell yourself what you are doing better than you would have done before. Seeking reassurance here, for example.

Also, yo uhave awareness of your anxiety being disproportionate, so that is a good thing.

Thanks flight, sorry things arnt good your way either, yep i needed new alarms, the poor bloke prsctically ran out of here, i was so close to crying on his shoulder. Nicky, my HA started a few years ago when my mum was having problems she was being tested for bowel cancer (she was ok thank god) and since then i have been terrified of getting cancer

Have you had some help to resolve it?

Yes i had therapy and was really getting somewhere, ive been so much stronger recently not thinking that a sore throat was throat cancer etc, but this has really knocked me for 6

Could you have a few more counselling sessions, to help you over this tricky patch?

i think i should have asked the doctor to call me this morning so i might ask her to re-refer me again, i might try tablets aswell coz at this moment i feel like verything is crashing in around me

Yes, it would be good to get a bit of help as yo uare struggling. Please don't feel you have failed though. It took me several seperate series of therapy to get over my anxiety disorder.

Oh Lou how awful for you
I am sorry to hear about your mum, but glad she was Ok. it sounds like it was a trigger for you to start this thing off.
I wonder if it might have been connected to PND somehow - depends what stage your children were at I suppose, but sometimes that can manifest in strange ways.

I hope your GP is sympathetic. I reckon once you have some reassurance that the bleeding isn't to do with cancer, you might be able to get back on track again.

Nicky is right, these things do come and go, but you are still on the right road just a little deviation

Loopylou I have bleed from there for years and had loads of tests done and they cant find anything and they have just concluded its just one of those things. I know how worrying it can be its so easy for your mind to run away with you. Go back and get it checked out but its probably nothing. Have a nice relaxing day, forget about chores today and do something you enjoy. Sending you hugs

Thtas reasurring OH, thank you. Flight i dont think it could be PND as my dcs are 9 and 4 but i have always been a very anxious person anyway, from a young age i suffered with OCD which thankfully i dont have anymore. I really hope my GP will reasurree me i trust her as she is also a bupa doctor and a surgeon so i think shes more in the know than other gps maybe

Loopy my mum had/has OCD and I hve always been very anxious too, so know where you're coming from
Hope you manage to relax a little bit and things start to seem less overwhelming x

Hiya flight ive managed to stop crying at least have been left with an awful headache though. Ive been googling aswell which i know i shouldnt do but i honestly cant resist the urge and have now found out that young people can and do get bowel cancer. The doc phoned about 1, wasnt much help really she wanted me to go back on the diclofenac which theres no way im going to do, and she says it could be that i had a tummy upset which irritated my bowel, but im not sure about that. Would the bleeding get less if it was bowel cancer? there was only a couple of spots today i have since been again and that one was ok.

I can sympathise with you. I'm an anxious person and have health anxieties. I too went to the dr about this in a panic about 5 years ago and it turned out to be a small tear which was bleeding.

I know how easily everything gets out of proportion. Try to remember that there could be lots of simple reasons for this, don't assume the worst.

Remember the more you have this worry on your mind, the more it will have control of you. I always find it best to do whatever I can not to think about it.

Hope you feel better soon.

Thanks for the kind post nic could i ask you a personal poo question? I have been entertaining the thought of a possible tear, but the thing thats bothering me is, would blood from a tear result in bloody mucous?

loopy, haven't read all your thread but I had the same problem with the poo and it was an anal fisure. (sp) The Dr said, if the blood is bright red it's fresh and from the anus rather than the stomach. HTH

Do you gte pain with an anal fissure?

Read something about mucous once and from memory I think it's normal. Where is the pain?

I sometimes get intense pain in my stomach because I have IBS as well and sometimes the trapped gas can be excrutiating. It is also pretty flippin painful passing a stool with a fissure.

I do think that because the blood is red it's nothing to worry about.