My life has just been turned upside down, I know you lovely lot will get it more than others so please forgive me for the self indulgent post.
My DH was admitted to A&E on Sunday night with stomach pain and is looking at a probable diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. The growth is obstructing a duct from or to the liver and he is jaundiced - he's been scanned again and just had another MRI to see if surgery is possible. It has completely wrecked me, he's being so brave and positive and all I can think about is being without him, we've been together over 30 years and I can't imagine life on my own. I know I'm jumping the gun, but the reality is that it's a bugger of a cancer.
I really thought that I was getting somewhere, I've tested negative for the BRCA genes which is good and that chemo and radio although hard were going to see this off and we could get back on track next year. All I know now is that life is never going to be the same again and it's truly shit.
I know I have to cope but I really don't feel up to anything at the moment, nights are awful and unless I'm at the hospital I'm floating about the house achieving nothing.
I wish each and everyone of you the very best, I'm not sure whether I'll post much here now, and for goodness sake - if you want to do something, do it, don't put anything off for another day.