Recall after very first Mammogram - I'm utterly terrified

[Gingerwine1]

Please help!
Had my first mammogram ever 2 weeks ish back. The lady said I may be called back as it was my first...and I have been.

I am completely terrified, I called the department and all they could say was they were checking my left breast.

I have always suffered with anxiety my whole life..and I had very bad health anxiety in my 20s.

So here I am...I can barely eat, I feel sick....scared to death. I cannot get a handle on my thoughts and fears...my appointment is Wednesday.

Please any words of any comfort if you have a moment to reply. xxx
THANKYOU x

Thankyou x its just the word abnormal which is especially terrifying x

Not long to wait until your appointment tomorrow. What time do you have to be there? I hope that the medication is helping you.

2.30 xx taking my meds x rabbit in head lights x meds taking edge off...a lil bit xxxxxxx

I had a lump and was referred to rapid diagnosis clinic. I was shitting myself. The letter that came through from the clinic helpfully said that 9/10 people referred did not have a serious condition so even if they've seen a lump it's most likely nothing to worry about. But yes obviously we do! Fortunately after more tests my lump came back as non conclusive but non agressive but I remember the waiting was awful x

It so awful x i feel awful x like my life has stopped :(

@Gingerwine1 I've just found your thread. I've received a callback and my appointment is tomorrow afternoon. I was a wreck last week when I received the letter, thinking of all different scenarios, but I'm now burying my head under the carpet trying to keep my emotions under control and keep busy.

This was my second mammogram with my first being in 2020 during lockdown. I was told then that I most probably would be called back as it was my first mammogram but I never was. In hindsight I don't know whether I should have followed this up.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and hope that everything goes well.

@lookingforMolly I've just read the thread fully and saw you've got a recall for tomorrow as well. I wish you the best of luck too.

I do hope we can update tomorrow with positive news.

Hello xx I will be thinking of you too xxx just about to take another anxiety tablet ! Can I ask was your letter generic ? I knew it was something as it was thicker! It says we are inviting you for a further assessment...mammogram, etc possible biopsy...give your self 3 hours etc. I phoned a breast nurse today at a free charity phone no who was lovely...as I have been fixating on the word abnormal that was mentioned when i called the clinic. My appointment is 2.30 xxxx thanku for your message xx my husband has been lovely but I think hes finding my anxiety hard to deal with xx

Have you got a recall too? Xxxxxxx thanku for your message xxx

@Gingerwine1 & @FeelingAnxiousNow thinking of you both tomorrow too x

Hi, @Gingerwine1, I'm going to a private clinic tomorrow (NHS haven't even given me an appointment yet, and I went to my GP on the 30th June with a lumpy painful breast, having had pain for a month already).
I'm terrified too. I've also had to take anxiety medication the last couple of days just to function and not collapse in tears at work.
I'm trying very hard to focus on the fact that this time tomorrow I will have at least some idea of what's going on, so perhaps we can think of each other until tomorrow evening.

All three of us ! Hugs and love to you both xxx

@FeelingAnxiousNow, and I'll be thinking of you too.

I could have written this, word for word. In fact I went back and checked the user name in case I'd forgotten posting.
Good luck

I will be thinking of you ladies tomorrow and hoping that by the time I login (I'm in the US) I'll be hearing nothing but good news. Take care.

Sending you a big hug xxx thinking of you xx I have just taken some more meds xxx what time is your appointment? Mines 2.30 x hour and a half drive x i havent been able to function and hardly eat for a week x my husband had had to have a pot noodle for t! X i feel like ive shut down :(

Thankyou xxxx

I meant to ask x have you had a recent mammogram ? Mine was 3 weeks ish back...my first ...Im 49 x

My appointment is at 2.45. It's a one-stop breast clinic, so I should have any tests I need. I could take another dose of mine, but am trying not to.
The best of luck. X

Oh, and my last mammogram was about years ago (can't remember exactly), so am due another one soon anyway. It was clear.

Gaah! 3 years ago....

Oh, OP, I feel for you. You are where I was exactly a year ago.

I joined a brilliant FB group for people with breast cancer. It really helped me manage my ridiculous health anxiety. People on there, even those with cancer, said the waiting is far worse than the actual knowing. That thought kept me going!

I also reasoned that as I could not feel a lump, and it was my first mammogram, if it was cancer, then it was hopefully caught early.

My appointment is also at 2.30! Can't believe we're all around the same time. My original appt was 2 weeks ago so letter arrived 10 days after. Mine says 'further tests at assessment clinic ... appt may take between 2 to 4 hours ... may include a breast examination, more mammograms and an ultrasound scan. You may also have a biopsy".

I'd really like a glass of wine to chill tonight but thinking it's best not to!

I was called back after my first mammogram. I had further mammograms, ultrasound, biopsy. Mine was a rare type of breast cancer. Whatever it turns out to be, it’s good that it’s being dealt with. It may well be nothing, but in case it isn’t, you can’t change that fact by wishing it away. I wish you the best with it.

@FeelingAnxiousNow, I'm on my second! I know my limits, so it's ok for me.
Thinking of you.