hi,
tomorrow i have a hospital appointment again. i have, i think, an anal fissure.
i gave birth to my baby 8.5 mths ago, forceps delivery, episiotomy and all that, and a couple of weeks after got this extraordinary pain when shitting, and blood etc. firstly, was diagnosed as having haemorroids, but eventually they decided it was a fissure.
last appointment it was too painful for them to look, but they said yes, probably a fissure, suggested anoheal - which i have found is safe for breastfeeding and am using and helps - but im not healed yet.
possibly might have to have surgery, which carries a risk of fecal incontinence. ugh. but im getting desperate. at the moment the pain is manageable, but sometimes it hurts not only having a bowel movement, but for hours afterwards.
i havent had penetrative sex since the birth, feel too afraid and in pain, the vagina too close to the anus.
and, im worried it might be worse than a fissure. rectal bleeding, lost lots of weight, need to shit at 5ish most mornings, often really urgently and very loose (sorry TMI!) and ive been thinking its my period coming back but now imwondering if its abdominal pain cos of some irritable bowel disease?
anyway, if anyone else has suffered this please let me know! and, im breastfeeding, and ive heard from other bf mothers that there fissures healed after stopping feeding, maybe low eostegen interfering with healing???
dreading my appointment tomorrow, cos its embarassing and probably pointless (they havent yet managed an internal examination cos too painful), but then i dread going to the toilet every morning too.
wish me luck!