I still have no idea what this thread was supposed to be about. You were dreading 'tomorrow' (you posted last Friday, so 'tomorrow' was Saturday.) There is no comment on what was supposed to be happening last Saturday, what did happen last Saturday, whether it was as bad as you thought it was going to be, or indeed anything other than a belief that somehow you were misdiagnosed or mistreated (whether any of those facts are true is not clear - it's not possible to tell from any of your posts).
I'm not sure that posting on this thread is going to be good for your ongoing anxiety or mental health. It seems to be a backwards step and keeping you within that fearful place, whereas you have already said that you are now under the care of a single consultant that can look after both of your ongoing health concerns.
What do you need from the thread, natty? If it is a discussion on how terrible the NHS are, to build your anxiety further, I think it would be a mistake to continue - if it is support for your ongoing health issues, you might want to start a new thread in this section that is a bit clearer? (Maybe with the diagnosis in the title?) There is also great help to be found on the mental health boards, or even bereavement if you are still suffering from debilitating panic attacks or ptsd like reactions to your father's death?
Are you able to work out what it is you need from the thread? Or was it a more general chit chat, and the 'dreading tomorrow' was more of an existential feeling rather than related to a specific event? I'm still confused about what you feel the hospital are lying to you about?