tough I remember you holding my hand in those first threads. You and some of the other back pain sufferers. And, unfortunately, I do remember your experiences and the words of wisdom and preparation for the potentials in the future. And try as I might to use those experiences of others to avoid being her, I am alas here
I was, and continue to be amazed at how much help you and the others gave me, and I absolutely would not have made the recovery I have so far without it, I would never have got as far as neurosurgery, as forcing the MRI got my GP to believe that yes it was really my disc and his attitude changed completely. And, mostly, the handholding when I could bear the pain no more.
I am sorry you are still on this horrible fucking roller coaster.
I have MRI tomorrow morning, cancellation. Pain levels are higher than normal but hugely in spine and uniform into the leg which I think is probably more transferred pain so not sure they will see what I want them to see.
My DH had an interesting conversation about my second opinion with an old family friend who used to work quite high up in healthcare (not doctor, engineering or something) but knows the system well from the inside and has 'rubbed shoulders' with colleagues who were doctors etc while doing gold, as well as navigating it when is wife was sick (terminal cancer). He has said that I need to get my second opinion outside of South West. He said that I need to find THE BEST surgeon, but not if it's in Exeter as there is a good chance that my surgeon and the surgeon who is looking at my file while play golf together, or socialise on some level and talk. If they are colleagues then the second opinion surgeon may be hugely reluctant to overrule my surgeon's decision, regardless of his view on fusion. It's an interesting perspective and I see where he is coming from. I think it has been proven already that HCP are not impartial when it comes to these types of decisions.
matilda (and others) re tramadol addiction. My GP insisted it's not addictive, and on one level he is right. It's not addictive in that it can quickly have you needing more and more (like say diazepam if you take it too long, you need more for the same effects). The problem in terms of addiction is more about when you stop using it, you will get withdrawal. GP said this doesn't happen, he lied. It's to do with the half life of the drug and it leaving your system and it does affect you. I found that I needed to reduce it to the bare minimum first, from 100mg SR x 2 daily (and top ups of up to 400mg per day) to 50mg (that's when I cut a SR in half, trying to titrate down. Don't do that if it's a tablet! But fine if its a capsule as the beads are SR individually). And then I missed a day here and there, before going 2 days then taking one, 3 days then taking one, then just getting on with it, but taking maximum paracetamol, naproxen and plenty of water. I kept as busy as I could and swam lots. I experienced fluy symptoms in my arms/legs (but realise now that might have been what I was feeling that it was hiding as a painkiller) and very restless. It took about a week when I came off it and not as bad as when I had tried before (several times), during which time I felt so bad I started using it again. Actually, probably should not have come off it at all. Some people struggle longer, and some people have NO problems coming off it. But, the addiction is more about half life withdrawal that physical and mental addiction. But, actually, you should not be thinking of coming off it at the moment as you need this. You will be surprised at how quickly your pain levels increase if you don't take it. I didn't take it this morning until I got into work as got sidelined by children, and I was in so much pain, didn't realise 50mg did so much for pain relief (as well as paracetamol and napraxen).
I agree with matilda re making sure you mix your meds properly (sorry can't remember who posted about their meds, and can't scroll without it taking an age. I normally have a pad to remind of things like this, but don't atm) rather than just increase the dose. It's such an easy thing to do, but the combination of meds is just as important. You can get syrups for nortryptline and amytriptiline etc starting at as low as 1mg, so you can titrate upwards really slowly if you struggle with the side effects. I will talk to my own GP about this seeing as the pain clinic guy has just made up a million bullshit reasons for not giving me the injection. I will get it, just have to jump through some more hoops and meet the consultant personally and have a chat. pain clinic guy said the consultant (who does the injection) can explain the risks and reasons for it not being recommended after a year of nerve pain (after I refused to drop it) and I said I will explain to him why he should do it
But other than that appointment, the pain clinic won't be seeing me again for a while. waste of my time.