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throws some hot cross buns on the trolley

speedy are you feeling any better yet? I have a vested interest as I gave been mapping your recovery from FEC as that will be me in a few weeks, obviously, also very much hoping that you are not feeling so poorly.
really, how's things? If all has gone to plan you must only have 2 sessions yet - are you actually feeling that the end is in sight now?
Hello to everyone else. X

only Iv had several fibroadaenomas in both breasts.I had 2 removed then decided I can't keep having surgery to remove them so there they stay! I have needle and core biopsies every time, there and then and have waited a week or so for results, fibroadaenomas are benign tumours and can be all sizes, I have one now that's quite large and several small ones only seen on a scan.
I understand totally how you feel and wish you lots of luck

hi everyone
Thanks for all the messages and support.
Biggerbuns I seemed to really struggle this time and had a bit of a relapse on Wednesday with upset tummy and feeling really sick again. Had a bit of a meltdown with lovely staff nurse when I called to see what else I could take but today has been much much better so am hoping that now it is a week I can look forward to lots of improvement. It wasn't quite as bad last time in terms of length but I was sick. Not sure the emend and I got along that well is time so am going to see what they say.

mrs and only. This is a wonderful place for support. Thinking of you both. Waiting for results is awful.

Going to head for an early night as I am supposed to be going for a conference tomorrow. It may be a really stupid decision ( am being taken) but I was really looking forward to going and need to feel a bit normal.

really how are you getting on this week?

I'm about two thirds through now. Another 13 sessions to go. Skin on my collarbone starting to get a bit sore. But they gave me a steroid cream immediately, and it doesn't seem to have gotten any worse in past 3 sessions.

Will someone tell me to pull my socks up? I have a scan after chemo - so probably in 4 or 5 weeks time - that will follow up an enlarged lymph node on the sternum. I am absolutely terrified. So longing for treatment to end, and so frightened that there will be no respite and that yet again I will find myself in an even more difficult reality. All exacerbated by two of my dcs talking to me about their own fears, and my dd - just when I'm brimming with my own fears - talking of her worries about further treatment. I feel so awful about them and need somehow to get through these weeks.

Morning all and hugs to everyone new. I was told straight away lump was cancer too after a mammogram & ultra sound.
Had 2nd 'ec' yesterday & didn't go like the first! Had cold cap again on for five hours but as soon as it was switched on needed to be sick & that lasted the whole time - not sure I will be able to do it again...... Chemo burnt my vein & they struggled to find another as by then they had all collapsed!! Did anyone else have these problems with cold capping?

Morning all :)

Wren I won't tell you to pull your socks up, I will say that it's all too easy to let your mind go for the worst case scenario especially with the waiting, I'm sure they are just being cautious

Chatelaine I haven't heard of that but I'm much earlier in the journey than you, good that you got it checked out but go back if you're still not happy sounds painful

Welcome to mrs and only and mrs I hope the results are good for you today, if not we are all here for you and will help you through

Really how are you? Nearly done hopefully ( fingers crossed no more cock ups )

Speedy did you get to the conference ?

Mom glad it going ok, those 13 will fly by

Love to all, I'm tired today after my 2 days at work but looking forward to nice meal and few wines tonight !

Hi Honey - yep - I battled through 3 sessions whilst having FEC and it made my nausea really bad - in fact even now (9 months down the line) I can't even picture the cap without feeling ill (sorry - that's probably not much help). I didn't continue with it for my Tax as it was too stressful.

Thank you all for replying, I'm trying to take comfort from your experiences but I know my hospital may do things differently. I've been for a gym session to keep mind and body distracted. I've had to lie to dd2 about why we won't be home when she gets in from school this afternoon, it's her last day before study leave for AS exams next week. I'm really worried about being able to keep it all in, if its bad news, until her exams are over. She is predicted top grades and I just can't ruin it for her now. It's so nice to be able to post. Lovely as my friends are, they all have children at school with mine and its scary how news gets round, even when it shouldn't. Thank you.

Thanks, Malt. It does help. Well done for getting through your two days (sounds like a lot to me from here!).

Mrs, good luck. And I agree that telling your dd now would be unhelpful. Your dcs are older than mine, but it is easier to pass on this stuff when you have a clear line of action. And at the moment we're hoping for an all clear...

Sorry about the nausea, Honey.

First day wearing mascara today! Hair probably ok to dye now, must pick up some organic color and organise a friend to color it for me.

Feels like I'm coming out the other side at last!!

Hello All, Fingers crossed for those waiting for results and sending hugs to those having a horrid time with SE's etc.

Well done Mom good to hear some positive news

Yesterday I was feeling quite energetic and spent most of the day gardening. However that evening I noticed my right index finger was bruised and swollen. I think I may have something to do with using the lawn mower. As the day has progressed the bruising underneath has gone. I really don't want to ring the chemo unit as they will ask me to go in. Has anyone else had any experience with bruising while on FEC? I do wonder if it may have something to do with my blood count.

Well ladies, it looks like I'll be joining you. I feel quite calm just now. I have to have a lumpectomy in 2 weeks then 3 weeks of radiotherapy. At the moment they are hoping no chemo but we'll see. It's a 17cm lump near my armpit, nodes unknown just now. Obviously this plan could change at any time depending on what they find, I realise that, but for now I'm holding onto the words " you're going to be ok".

Got to keep it from dd2 which will be difficult and then destroy her post exam high. Did I mention we're having a new kitchen installed a week on Monday too. Bugger.

mrshodge sorry to hear it wasn't good news. Keep holding onto those words. They wouldn't have been said otherwise.

wren you certainly don't need to pull your socks up. Do you have people you can talk to as well? It is difficult trying to talk through things with the children. As malt said, they are probably being cautious.

malt I made it today! feel so much better for having something else to focus on and it was brilliant. If you ever have the chance to see Alaistair Bryce-Clegg then beg your head to go.

honey hope SE lessen soon.

mummy I don't know about bruising. I haven't had any but only on second lot.

Am tired after getting out today but am beginning to feel more normal. Anti-sickness drugs stop now so fingers crossed tomorrow will be ok.

mrsrhodgilbert - Just to let you know that when I first came here in 2011 I was reassured that it is all doable, one step at a time. Wise words. I have come out the other side and my issues are now minor. It is a nightmare and everyone reacts differently emotionally. Whatever you say or do is completely normal. Personally I stormed but had the freedom to do so as the children had left home. I had a similar sounding treatment plan to you. Lumpectomy (or sometimes referred to as WLE/Wide Local Excision. At the same time I underwent a sentinal node biopsy which determines whether cancer is present, if that had been the case I was told I would be offered Chemo. In my case the nodes were clear. I had a month of Radiotherapy and take Tamoxifen. Enjoy your dd and her exam period, you must be so proud and with the support of a trusted few you will get away with holding it in to achieve that, chances are dd will be thankfully too absorbed to notice anything different. Assuming you're not installing the new kitchen yourself, just let that happen.

mrshodge sending good wishes, you will get through this! just look at this as a blip. Stay with these lovely MNetters, they will help you through it x

mrshodge take it day by day...

Sorry not to have been around much - had second chemo cycle but also needed blood transfusion. Just permanently shattered and a bit brain-foggy to keep up with you all.

I am truly blown away by the help I'm getting outside my family: the school mums :) They take my DD on play dates, have taken her to school when I have an early hospital appointment and DH is abroad with work, they collect her if I'm too tired and my DM is not available, they are taking her to class parties too. They are so helpful in a practical way. My DD is not a handful at all - she's very gentle and plays really well on her own - but she's still 5yo with lots of energy and exuberance that can be draining so I am very grateful to these women.

Mummywheel, I'm sure I had some bruising too. I knocked my arm, but not really very hard and it was really sore for a few days. Also when it was warm the other day I wore sandals and that night the soles of my feet really ached and felt sore. I'm sure they were bruised. Also, my husband says the skin sheds faster than you can remake it when you are on chemo. So it's easy for your hands and feet to become sore because your skin gets thinner.

BishB school moms fabulous to me too. Such practical really makes a difference.

I'm nearly finished Rads now, and my DDs life went on as normal during all the treatment. (In fact they each added a hobby, as if they were not bush enough already!)

Hi all.

Mrshodge, sad that you're joining this board but glad you have found all the fine women on it. The early bits before knowing what's what are the worst for many. Once you know exactly what's what, and they're doing something about it, things settle into a pattern. Tricky about the kitchen. Any way to delay it, given the news, until you're sure you can cope?

So sorry to hear that Mrshodge x

Mrs I'm sorry though it does sound like you've caught it early

Hello ladies,

Do you mind if I join you on behalf of my dm?

This is the second time she is facing breast cancer and is currently 48 hours post mastectomy and I/we have a few questions

I have started a thread for advise about after the mastectomy so I won't clog this one up.

Thank you x

Hi all, welcome to the newbies! Sorry you find yourself here!

Sorry I haven't been on this week. It was NOT a good week! Or at least the start of the week!

My last Rads appointment is on Monday morning it can't come soon enough! It's been a long long journey, but I am almost there!!

well done Really - you have finally got there. Are you going to get a break from treatment now?