Tamoxifen bus shelter -42

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Malt I don't have to go but it's a once in a lifetime kind of thing that I was so looking forward to. At the moment I'm thinking that I will go, but I have the ultimate get out if I don't feel up to it. Yes, the idea of lolling on the sofa in my PJs is way more appealing given the way I'm feeling at the moment.
I need to go and wash my hair and do something with it now. And lots and lots of concealer to hide the bags.

On the other hand if you go and have a few drinks ( if you drink ) might take your mind off things. Enjoy washing your hair I miss that ! Have so many hair things gathering dust, straighteners and a multitude of curling things

Aw Malt if its any comfort I have crap hair. I was contemplating having it all chopped off anyway (not that it's even that long as it is). Dd1 has amazing hair, so envious of her. Our hairdresser struggles to believe I actually gave birth to her .
I do drink but haven't felt like it recently but I'll see what's on offer. I'm hoping it'll be a celebratory drink rather than drowning my sorrows.

Hi Handbag -
If it is an event you were previously looking forward to, then go. Decide that you are going to have the very best time you can. And then hopefully you will.

Not quite the same as you, but I had an event last Sat that I had previously been looking forward to.

I got my results last Mon, they weren't what I expected, and I made decision to go for chemo on Tues. It felt a right hassle going along on Sat, I would have much preferred to stay on my sofa in PJs... But I'd promised others, so went along. Many of my family & some old friends were there (who don't yet know I have cancer). I ended up having the best time in a long time.

Your event sounds pretty special!

Hi mom it is a special event and you're right I really should go. Only people there who know about my boob are family, no one else will know so at least I won't have to talk about it. I guess you must have found the same thing at your event on Sat.

Thank you, you've forced my decision! X

handbag I did a few sneaky updates to some family members on the night. But cancer free conversion for rest of the night. A few glasses of red wine helped too.

Hoping Ruby has had her procedure and gets all sorted ready for Freshers.

hnd You really have had a horrible experience. I know a few people who have had your procedure and no one has had anything like the problems you have had. At least on the positive side you do have a lovely Consultant who wants you fixed but you would not be human if it didn't get you down.

gigs Can't think what to write as keep thinking of Fleetwood Mac lyrics! Tango in the Night came out about the time DH and I got together, and we were having a really fun social life. Was it the two female singers? Or just Stevie Nicks. I have always liked her especially. Amazing they speak to each other though...

Yes, Dad's riding ability must be legendary as neither DB, who was a three day eventer or I find her much fun to ride. You could say capricious or possibly cussed or maybe just plain mad..... But she is getting old too (16), it wasn't her fault this time and she did come back and nuzzle Dad to make sure he was OK. He did after all pull her into the world as a foal so she owed him that (no anthropomorphism there )

Amber Have a great break. You deserve it

Handbags the therapy of a good night out is not to be underestimated and the worry of anticipation is always worse

Driving oop north and back in the space of two days has completely knackered me but she liked the uni and now both favourites are up there (plus St Andrews has crept on the list ) so better get used to it

Little pigeons and I were shouting at the Mary Berry on GBBO last night. Talk about having favourites! Glen and Kimberley are our favourites now.

Anyway hugs and waves to everyone I have undoubtedly forgotten

Hope handbags is out partying and amber is all packed :)
I'm tired, had a busy day but thought all these steroids would be keeping me awake, don't feel I'll have much trouble sleeping ( famous last words ! )

God evening from me. It has all gone a bit quiet in here. Hope that means we are all out getting on with real life.

My scan went ok today but I always find them very surreal like there is something wrong with me or something. I did not have to wait at all so was unable to read the train magazine. I am back for an ultrasound on Friday but that will involve a different waiting room so I wonder what reading material delights they will have. I am dreading the ultrasound actually as they will press down on my neck and scar which I am expecting to be most unpleasant.
I have a sore throat so I am rather scared now as that may mean I have radioactive uptake in my neck which is not good at all. results on 10 th October at my clinic appt I assume so I may need some handholding. I keep trying to be positive and appreciate small nice things but scans bring it al into focus again and make me feel sorry for myself. My daughter got upset when she saw the marks on my arms from the needles too which was not nice I didn't know what to say apart from that I was fine.

Hope ruby is all sorted.

Waving to everyone else and throwing iodine laden snacks on the trolley.

Just checking late, I have had my first crying day today: really the first time I have cried since diagnosed back at the beginning of August. Not sure why just a bit overwhelmed. Feeling better now despite losing my first handful of hair.

Hoping all scans and results are good.

Also ... Why do we need iodine ? Is this something I should be having and can you get it from a gin and tonic?

notj hope u/s goes well today. Gosh 10/10 is a long time to wait for results

any Turk heading your way is a toy one!

That should of course be truck, but a toy Turk might be more fun
damn autocorrect

Morning Betsy. Yes a toy Turk could be fun .... Just think of the kebabs!

I woke up too early but up to series 5 on ER now

Morning. I also woke early (just before 5) due to DHs tablet bursting into live and sounding like a mobile was ringing - couldn't then get back to sleep but OK as on series 7 of Grey's Anatomy and very addicted now.
Nothing on today so will go back to bed as soon the kids are the out the door!

I have been on a low iodine diet for the 2 weeks before the scan foofoo so now I can gorge on iodine laden foods.

Waves to all you early wakers ....... I am now at work and heading down to see Mrs Surgeon soon ..... hope she will have a cunning and permanent plan for this leaky wound.

Any news from ruby

topsy and gigs quiet on here too (though plean to see topsy after hospital for a coffee and a natter)

GBBO - That Ruby one is like the kids at school who used to say "i have not revised and I don't think I did well in my exam" then goes on to get an A* ....... she really gets on my nerves. I do like Glen though and Kimberly is my favourite - she just gets on with it and turns out some lovely stuff

Morning peeps.
Hnd hope they can finally nail it together.
I'm on way to work, and realised bus is probably taking me to the wrong side of the hospital, oh well.
Cold has gone a bit, now a bit chesty.
Which unis did you visit gig? Any near me?
Getting new second hand lawn today. Just a little for the front garden. Next door finding their immaculate grass too much work and getting astroturf today

Morning.

foofoo your comment about your crying day really hit home with me. I think sometimes events out of your control just run up and slap you around the face when you're least expecting it. The last ten days have really taught me about my emotions, and about how one minute you can feel fine fine fine all optimistic, then boom, it all comes flooding over you and you think the worst. Big hugs to you anyway and I hope the crying is done for the moment and that you're feeling stronger and more refreshed today x

Saw my Mrs Dr yesterday. It is breast cancer, but I knew that already. It does appear to be localised to one small part of one boob, and is of a type that is treatable. She said, of the cancers to get, it's one of the better ones . She has time to remove the lump tomorrow!!!! So today I'm off for the sentinel node thingy, and then into hosp for midday tomorrow. Then I'll have the wait for the results of the op, then radiotherapy...you know the score. That's all fine by me, just want it out.

Then she told me I'll need Tamoxifen for 5years (argh nooooooo!) and still potentially chemo due to my age, ie. to make sure they've well and truly got the fucker. These two things are taking me a bit longer to get my head around.

Anyway, went out last night, all things considered I scrubbed up quite well and had a good evening. BIL kept his emotions in check, although when we were in a cab on the way to the venue it did feel like the elephant in the room, but I was sat next to people who I'd never met before so was free to waffle on all about normal stuff.

Right need to get my arse in gear and get me to the nuclear medicine dept. Have a good day all, feeling a little emotional towards you all already .

handbag thanks for the hug, feeling better today and painting instead of sobbing and feeling sorry for myself.

Wow, but wow, on getting lumpectomy so quickly, IMO that is brilliant. As you say it's not he end of the journey then but those other things are often not as bad as you anticipate.

Keep us posted.

Quick wave to malt who is having session 4 today

Handbags that's brilliant you are getting the op so soon are you going private ?

Sitting here with tax going in, she gave me a pain button which was a bit worrying but all ok so far, half an hour to go
I'm the only person in the room again , does make me cross how upset they made me before chemo by staying dh wouldn't be able to sit with me there has been tonnes of room each time

Love to all will catch up properly later

Hnd -am here but was out last night as well and busy yesterday so no chance to post. I hope your surgeon has a plan as I can see how wearing it is. My flipping back not healed up so will be on at surgeon about that when I see him for 6 week appointment tomorrow. Got genetics appt this afternoon but suspect will have not found anything.

Handbags- hope all goes well later and tomorrow .it is good that joking wait. I think it was sensible to go last night as need to remember there is more in life than illness, hospitals etc.

Nj glad off diet restriction - out of interest what couldn't you eat?

Foofoo- crying can be therapeutic so hope painting does the same.

Malt -thinking of you today.

Pigeons- fleetwood mac was excellent and they did most of old hits. Only had brief bit where they indulged and let mick fleetwood do a long drum solo . Then change of tone to see Nicola Benedetti last night.

Glad mini pigeons getting clarity for her applications . When is the deadline?

Jchoc- morning .

Hope amber has fab holiday- waves to everyone else.

Not making you - not joking. This phone !

Malt, I'll sit with you during Tax. How's it going?? I think they worry on first go that you might react badly, so that's why they give you a button. You won't am sure. x

Handbags, yay for 'treatable' and quick op. Hope you're back soon. Chemo and Tamoxifen are annoying, but better than cancer. That's all you can keep hold of in a way. Come back soon..

foofoo, am mighty impressed you haven't cried up to now. Hope it helped. Always helped me to have a wail that's for sure.

Hope Mrs Surgeon has a plan and some superglue, HND.

Hand holding a plenty, NotJ. You've had such a tough wait for this point. Must be very hard to keep a lid on paranoia. I'd bet the sore throat is just stress. really hope it is.

Gigs, did you wear a swissy flow-y skirt to Fleetwood Mac?

Pigeons, St Andrews is so far away!! When do the UCAS forms have to be in?

How are the aches, Betsy?? Any better today?

Waving to Jane, and all others I've missed. Better do some work. Have already failed on that front as diverted after school to a coffee shop with a fellow mum. The curse of working at home means I'm so easily distracted..!

Low iodine diet - no fish, only one portion of dairy / eggs a day. There is some red colour in lot of food to avoid so no spam or glacé cherries. Also no iodised salt or sea salt so processed / takeaway food with salt in is ruled out unless you know it is not iodised and most places have no idea. That is the worst one really as it means no junk or ready made stuff !

yay handbags !! sorry to be brief but have loads to do...love to all...