******The 36th TAMOXIFEN thread******

[NedSchneebly]

You all out there? Pop this way!

I think that may be the case mas.

Truth is MAS yes, but it's early in the evening and your ladies need some provocation to get them fighting, and don't we love them...

placing carefully some home made cherry ripe on the trolley outrageous recipe - the result of "indoor activities" DH did with the girls - looking forward to scoffing left overs tomorrow

Waving to Mr Gigs on his weekly -drunken-- visit. Gigs hope you get all the cheese. Seems reasonable if you were on the lemonade..

Any news from Ash, is she home??

Gracie, did the switch to lower grades motivate him to actually do some revision. Hope chinese was tasty.

MAS, I'd freak at the idea of feeding a crow. Birds are very much my room 101. Really couldn't go there. Daft cat managed to swat a Jay not long ago and then didn't know what to do with it. Think we were both mighty glad when it flew off.

Malt, glad to hear Primark came up with the goods for DD. The rainbow's a sign either of too much wine, or of good things to come, or maybe even both?

Am back from the pub. Friend had sleepless night with her baby last night, so I poured wine down her, now home for more. Am about to order take away.

Rainbow definitely a good omen malt.

Ash- sending you love and positive vibes with arse firmly on paranoia box for you.

Am with smee about being bit eek on baby birds. But I think wine will help with new baby.

I have had cheese, got cake (yes it's the yum Reuben's one) and choclit and watching the voice. Big gig appears better (wouldn't have gone to pub) so hoping no nocturnal fun.

Thanks for all the messages on meet up and ESP ideas - am reading all and will update when less done in.

Did you get through all nine pints to get your free one thn, mrgigs? It out appear so. . .

Yes ned and think there may even have been a new card started after I left..

"Would" appear so. . . Bloody ipad, and I've only had one glass. . .

gig

Ned, yes but to be clear I had some help from Gig's old soak sis and her bf, plus there were a few free stamps given our way due to Mr Gigs charming ways...nevertheless my senses are a little awry

Excuses, excuses, excuses mrgigs. Clearly your charm was your undoing.

Hello lovely ladies, and MrGigs, thank you for paranoia box duties. Obviously worked as not cancer and not a full blockage, bowel has just slowed itself down in protest! After spending most of the day writhing in pain I have had a lovely sleep and pain down to just annoying. Have read all your posts but after much tramadol and morphine am a little woozy so I shan't even attempt to reply to anyone for now. Have a lovely evening, goodnight :) ps not in cupboard this time! xxx

Great news ash hope you get a good sleep tonight.

Hope there are no sore heads in the gigs household tomorrow

That's good they know what it is- tucking you in and wishing you a lovely morphine sleep ash.

Glad that is sorted for now Ash. Hope you manage a peaceful night.

I am waving my eleven year old ds off on his french residential. It is only five days but I will miss him. I can't believe how grown up he has become. I am green with envy that he is going to euro disney without me!

Aw- trice that will be lovely for him.

Ash thats good to hear hope you have a good sleep x

I hate the nights but will try a sleep meditation app tonight to see if that helps. Need to stop my mind racing.

Enjoy the rest of the evening everyone

Trice I hope he has a brilliant time !

Good to hear you're ok Ash...
Gigs is feeding me diluted fruit juices to try to dull the inevitable hangover tomorrow..but we know that MiniGigs takes no prisoners in the early hours and targets MrGigs for room service with no mercy.

MrGigs is v grateful that Gigs was the receptacle/target for bigGigs vomiting sesh this morning and feels guilty that he was comatose when it all kicked off shortly after midnight (and pretended to remain so when woken by the splattering noises). Luckily I know you lot won't make me feel bad about that and I can share such confidences with you...

Am in car on way home from friends house .
Had such a fun time .
We all armed ourselves with nerf pistols and did battle !

Ash sweet dreams lovely x

Yay for you, Ash. Sweet dreams on drugs.

Topsy, I lurve nerf battles. Bet I could take you on.

Gig, it's MR GIG'S TURN TONIGHT. My DH v.good at sleeping through splattering noises too...

Trice, hope DS has a fab time. That is v.grown up. French france and without you.

Night all. Hope helps everyone sleep.

Another rubbish night here

Been awake most of the night worrying. Is it not better to take a tablet and get a good nights sleep ? Im worried about dying surely getting addicted doesn't really matter ? But maybe the doctor won't give me any more after this lot then I would be in trouble. Should I take them or not ? Take 1 every other night ? Just give up on sleep for now ?
Feel knackered and scared and not coping very well
Still got 3 weeks and 2 days till my op then 2 weeks after that to get the results then more waiting it just seems too much
Sorry to go on but dh is asleep lucky him
I did the meditation app and soothing pillow spray but nothing helped
It's just crap

Malt- I am so sorry that you had another crap night. I know it's been said before but IT is early days and sleeplessness doesn't help.

Fwiw this is what I would do:
Make a Gp appt ( if necessary do ooh as I think you don't want to spend another night) . I would ask about anxiety tabs ( Valium ) as stop gap to take edge off this and anti ds ( as others like ned have said these help and tend to fix sleep to).

Carry on with all the insomnia stuff ( sleep apps, get up if cant sleep rather then fester).

Try and keep as busy as you can even tho may feel like wounded animal as maybe best to avoid time to dwell and worry. I know you still will but it is not helpful.

And the death thing is horrible - it eats you up ( it is part of mt worrying pattern too at low moments).

Topsy- nerf guns sound great (ESP impressed if can handle that and at same time).

Wish had eye roll emoticon about dh and sick . Mercifully had good night so hoping that is last of it.

All? Big gig seems well enough for party so will shop and get while she is thereand avoid alpha mums. what is Everyone else up to?