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You all out there? Pop this way!

Hello EarthMother are you still awake? I've given up on sleep for now and moved to the sofa.

I found my CT scan very scary too, at the time I didn't realise they were looking for cancer but I didn't like the idea of them being able to see inside me!

I shall take the night shift on the paranoia box for you and I hope your fears quieten down so you can get some sleep.

It's perfectly understandable to be scared but once they know exactly what's going on they can make the best plan for your treatment.

Ouch at the fall :( that must've been a nasty shock and I can completely empathise with the disgust, I get that a lot too. The pampering day sounds like a fab idea :)

Cross-posted hello gigs I hope you are feeling better and can get back to sleep soon! :) enjoy your

Hello earth thoughts with you today - and i hope you can have a pamper day - if you're anything like me, I enjoy planning these things as much as having them. I just wish we had more streaming sunshine and less of this pitter patter rain. X

ash gigs having weird dreams here - think it was the post-rap and chocolate!

Morning All

See the party shift was on last night !

Earth those steroids are a bugger aren't they ? I got so jittery and ragey at one point , I had to take some of my hoarded supply of Valium !

Ash when you can't sleep like that , I find its best to just give up and get up . Just try not to nap during today and you should be back on track tonight .

Gigs no chucking up please !

Any plans today ?
I'm planning on phoning the hospital to chase up my CT results apt , if it doesn't arrive in today's post !

I had a rough night too. It was pretty stormy weather here.

Good luck with your scan Earth, hope it shows you are moving in the right direction.

Morning all
Earth good luck today
I slept ok but still feeling really crap about everything. I suppose that's normal. Still wondering why me and my family
No need to reply
Need to get my spark back a bit
Have a peaceful day everyone x

good luck with scan today earth and really hope you can get that bath massage -tht would be a lovely thing I'm sure. Eek about fall though- take care xxx
kk fab to see you !
smee you asked kindly about my hands and sadly I think that prickly is the way it is and nothing can be done really,apart from taking the prescribed pyridoxine - it could be loads worse though so there we are !
Saw baby rook yesterday at neighbour's house - he's eating more and looked bigger..still no flight feathers. Cat injecting going well- Smog doesn't seem to notice- he does sometimes move in mid prick but it all seems to be going in.

tea and drugs seem to have fixed nausea. Feel tired but that is cos dead arm in night- the good news is bruising seems to have largely gone round neck .

smog seems to be a very calm sort mas so can't see jabs bothering him.

Kurri- nice you are back(did you get your lattes for helping?) but grr about car. How is old lady dog?

Malt- have you rung Macmillan as they might be able to suggest someone to talk to? Also have you thought any more about anti ds or anxiety drugs to help you thru next few weeks?

Waiting on supermarket order then working then off out to town to see therapist . Will be my first big trip post op so hope not too much.

Waves to ash,smee, coorong (can hardly wait for next rap), ned, trice , earth and anyone else.

Talking of Eurovision , I don't like to mention it but do you think bonnie has had work done....

Gigs wonder if ringing Macmillan is a good idea, can't hurt I suppose thank you
Ash hope you are still asleep now ?
Trice did dd go to school ok this morning ?

Well that was the fastest hospital appointment ever. The passenger transport arrived before 9am, for 10.30am appointment. We got to the hospital which was eerily quiet and they called me in within 5 minutes.

I had the scan then had to sit for 10-15 minutes before they could take the canula out.

Transport came back straight away and we were back in the house before the stated appointment time

I feel like I've crossed time and space somehow (spooky music playing)

Last time I had a hospital appointment I was there 4 hours

I'm a bit concerned how sore my back and groin are today after yesterdays fall but all I can do is rest I guess and hope for the best.

It's my last tinzaparin injection tonight. They give it to you to prevent DVT's after being stuck in bed for a while and you have to take it for 28 days after surgery. The district nurses are happy for us to all take turns injecting me and it will be odd not doing them after today.

Good you're back, Earth. Good to get it done. Do you have to wait long for results? Rest up after that fall, sounds scary.

MAS, hands sound ouchy. Is it like pins and needles pain, or more nerve pain? must be distracting. We'll have to re-christen you Doolittle.

Gig, think you might be right on BT. She does look a bit pinched round the eyes. Don't overdo it or we'll send Amber round with the duct tape.

Malt, have you got a Breast Care Nurse? Mine is always lovely if I need a chat. Also, our hospital had a psychiatrist/ counsellor they could refer you to if you wanted to. I didn't go at diagnosis, but did when I was asking for preventative mastectomy and she was really good. Might be worth asking if your hospital has similar.

Bagels and scrambled eggs on the trolley. Hope everyone's okay out there. Ash, Trice are you having a good day??

Better get on and do some work. Yawn..

Did anyone else listen to Front Row yesterday - v good thing about Eurovision -worth a listen again here

I'm dashing off to work but just wante to say that I've just rang Macmillan who were helpful and kind of normalised everything if that makes sense? They said I could go through my gp and ask for a Macmillan nurse too
Have a good afternoon all

that's good malt. My GP said i could ask them for a Macmillan nurse too, but so far am having lots of support from my bcn.

Yoo hoo everyone

Been out with HND this morning .
We had a lovely time .
She took me for breakfast at our fave French cafe . I had eggs Benedict and she had rarebit .

Then we wandered down the road to the bank (so I could pay DHs parking fine !)

Then we went and did a bit of shopping .
I bought a lovely bright green top from M&S in the sale , then HND (who is very bad) bought me a beautiful coral lacey t shirt !
I feel very spoiled today

Post has been , scan results apt Monday afternoon !

Malt I would def get a Macmillan nurse assigned . The Macmillan centres also do basic yoga and relaxation courses too , that might help .

Earth hope you don't have to wait too long for results .

Gigs how very dare you even suggest that Bonnie has had work done ???
She is the very epitome of natural beauty .......

Just googled for Bonnie. Twice a year for 15 years?! Nice orange picture for you too, Gig. Though am not sure she's your type.

Heck, Topsy that's soon. Though good that you don't have to wait. Hurling galaxy counters onto the trolley for you. xx

Hello ladies I'm back the admitting papers have arrived from the hospital and I have realised I have to pulled my head up out of the sand. I have whizz through some of your posts and you all appear on good form.
The rest of my life has imploded so it has been very easy to forget and actually only three people know I am having surgery, but actually I haven't actually arranged for anyone to take me to and from the hospital. I hate being a burden to anyone and don't even know who I do or don't want there. I have managed to arrange a cover up at work by slightly extending my holiday.

Afternoon all, - sorry to see so many had a disturbed night - Earth fall sounds nasty and I totally understand how cross-making it is when something like that happens. The massage and pamper day sounds like a good thing

Malt - I think MacMillan nurse sounds like a very good idea - in any dealings I have had with them they have been great.

Gigs - hope you have stopped feeling sick now - these sicky bugs are horrible. I had a good few lattes at my friends plus a certain amount of cake. She's moving to live near where my son lives, so I'll be able to visit her when I visit him (so really only 40 miles away) - but it feels like a long way because I am used to seeing her a couple of times a week.

topsy - get you and HND and your French cafes for breakfast It is very like a French cafe chez Kurri - I have just had a cup a soup and slightly stake slice of bread Lots of luck for Monday - will have all my good vibes stacked up ready to send your way.

MAS - sorry about hands - it s such a nuisance for you, I hope they improve a bit soon.

I've got bloody shingles again - I'm so fed up, and I made a complete tit of myself and cried at the doctor - I was fine until he said 'oh you poor thing you keep getting them don't you' when I promptly burst into to tears and said 'c-c-c-c-can have something for pain management p-p-p-please?' he must think I am a total idiot. I'm, just so bloody fed up of getting bloody shingles, and I can't handle people being nice to me at the best of times!

Can I just say 'bloody shingles' one more time? grrrrrrrrrr

Anyway enough of my moaning, lots of love to everyone, old lady dog is OK, a bit doddery, but doddery is her default position these days

Is it just me or is the Bonnie Tyler song about as dire as it gets - even for Eurovision? I predict nil points again.

x-posted Lonecat - lovely to see you, and loads of luck with your op. - Would it be possible for you to arrange hospital transport if you don't necessarily want anyone you know taking you? - Might be worth ringing and finding out if that is an option. Sorry to hear things are not too good in other areas of life xx

G'ah to Shingles, Kurri. You weep away. What did the GP give you for the pain? Hope something mighty.

Interesting thing on R4 said even if we put the Rolling Stones in as our Eurovision entry we'd get nil points, as the rest of Europe hate us atm. Can't say I blame them..

Waving to Lone. V.lovely to see you. When is your op? Must be soon.

It was a stormy night for everyone then. I would have posted but ipad was out of juice and I was too busy with paroxysms of coughing and wetting myself . I have had a little niggly cough for a couple of months now but last night it got encouraged into high drama by the windy weather (and probably bought it on myself with all worrying and sleeplessness). Just off to empty Boots of cough medicines especially the ones that say Beware make you drowsy. Tonight it will be me, Don, Peggy and Benylin

Ash Sorry it kept you up again. Can you speak to your bowel nurse, it seems to have been behaving very erratically

Earth How annoying, When you have accidents like that where there is a feeling of culpability it really is so annoying and you just want to turn the clock back, I am a Klutz so plenty of experience. Glad your appointment went well, though given usual state of hospitals it does sound like you entered the TWILIGHT ZONE do do do do

malt glad Macmillan nurses helped

Lonecat I am sorry the rest of your life has imploded, arsey DH and OW? If you really want to do this alone, and I sympathise sometimes I do just want to get these things over with minimum drama and fuss so I can pretend it never happened, then hospital should be able to arrange a taxi that will be used to dropping home from hospital. You might find you would prefer someone with you when it comes to it though, do you know someone who could help who can be relied on not to head tilt etc. ?

KK Welcome back! Did you have a great deal of chocolate and with friend?

gigs Enjoy your day in town. Hope it isn't too much.

I agree Bonnie's durge song is not a vote winner. It is like she has taken all the ingredients of Holding Out for a Hero and put them into a liquidiser and what has come out is boring gunge, but with screeching, and botox, and very possibly hair extensions... I will still be watching though, perhaps she will whip her skirt off to get some votes

also waving to lone and bah about horrible shingles again kk - that is rotten.