Pen - massive hugs, of course you are shocked and numb sweetheart, - it is a scary thing, - we've all been there and truly we understand the emotions bombarding you at the moment.
Its good news that it's one of the less nasty types - hang on to that thought.
Yes, you have a long haul to go through, there's no denying that, but it is the start of the road to recovery. Surgery and whatever treatment you have afterwards are your weapons against the bastard, and scary and horrible as it is, it is doable. You will get through it a step at a time, deal with each new treatment as it comes up, and do whatever you have to to cope through it.
And remember your hospital team and GP are there to help you cope, whether through counselling, relaxation, anti- depressants or whatever you and they think might help you, - take whatever help is available to you. Local cancer support groups and centres can be very good for talking to people who 'get' what you are dealing with.
You are shocked and shattered, you've been through a tough couple of weeks with bad news at the end, so you will need a little time to get your head round it all.
But you will surprise yourself with your own strength and coping ability my dear, you really will.
Two things - which you can take or leave, but they helped me. The day I was DX my GP gave me valium and sleeping pills to help me through the first few days, they will prescribe it over the phone if you think you are going to have trouble sleeping.
secondly - I know the weather is lousy, but I found fresh air and a walk each day really did help, - I don't know why, it just did.
Much love, stick around and let us support you. xx