Menopause?? I really hope not.

[bubble99]

For the last couple of months my periods have been unusual for me. DS3 was born 10 and a half months ago and I think my ovulation was beginning to become a bit screwy when he was conceived, as he was a twin (his twin died).

I stopped B/F completely in September (I think!) First period afterwards was very light but the last three have been very heavy and have lasted for two days longer than usual. Also, mood swings Weepy one day and raging the next (again, unlike anything I've experienced before).

I'm TTC again and was really upset when my last AF showed up (which could explain the weepiness) but it's the raging which bothers me most.
Can anyone, who is either going through or has been through the menopause tell me what their periods were like before they stopped?
My mum was 48 when she went through it, so I'm a few years away (if family history plays a part) I'm 40 in July and I'm going to make an appointment to see my GP to see if I can have an ovarian reserve test, but I'm hoping someone can give me some clues based on their own experiences.

Thanks.

Bubble, have you contacted SANDS yet? The charity for those who lost babies at birth or near birth? My dear friend, whose first baby died as he was being born, got a lot of comfort from it.
I suspect you can only postpone grief with activity, not avoid it.
I'm sure Bo was a very beautiful baby. I was haunted by what you said about his address on the cremation certificate. Of course, his real home was inside you, but that means that your address was his too. Yes, Bo never lived outside you, and at nine months, his life was far, far too brief, but he certainly had a warm, happy, peaceful life inside you, in the company of his brother.

I had a good talk with Mr Bubble last night. We've decided to scatter Bo's ashes a few days before Elijah's birthday and to look at his pictures, hair and handprints together. He's been avoiding 'the envelope' as much as I have.

I'm also going to put Elijah's scan pictures in his 'baby book'. I found some of these pictures during a major clear-up recently and they knocked me for six, but I need to do it.

I'm going to look again at counselling. I did contact SANDS after Bo died, but I wasn't ready for it, I think I am now.

Thanks to all of you and, swedishmum, thanks for posting about Octavia. You've 'talked' to me before and I haven't always responded. Thanks.

XX

That is lovely.

Bubble, I am thinking of you.

Good for you, Bubbles...still think you are very brave. And that your plan sounds both loving and healing - will be thinking of you. xxx

Bubble. caught up with this thread today, and saw it had taken a slightly different turn. Have no real words of wisdom, but aloha has "pearls" iyswim. Take time to cry, to laugh, to remember (and never forget). Bo is part of your family, and always will be. Choose to celebrate him in whatever way you and your's decide.

Oops, not sure how that 's' got in sorry.

That sounds lovely Bubble. It does seem that the time is now right for SANDS or similar.

Thinking of you.

xxx