We're all in the same boat, but have to go through it
You have my sympathies, and you have just reminded me that i am due one in a few weeks.
I have had many an abnormal smear result, and other probs so should be very used to the whole thing as i have several a year, but i still hate them. THey are incredibly painful for me also, only recently found out that its due to the colposcopy's i had many years ago!
Just remind yourself that we all go through it, it only lasts a few minutes and then all over for hopefully 3 years? is it now?