LIGHTer Belles, LIGHTer Belles, LIGHTer All The Way..............

[TheMousefaceBeforeChristMouse]

.............Oh What Fun It Is Too Ride On Satan's Winter Sleigh!!!

Hey, I'm Mouseface.

I have now managed to, ahem, stop adding to my current weight, so I'm just going to sit the winter out.

Come the New Year, I'm kicking ass. As I am sure the other LIGHTer ladies will be too.

Maybe. Hopefully. If I can convince them too.

Anyway, come meet them all........ and feel free to join in!!

ah but we're all comparing ourselves to our 20 year old selves not the general population.

mind i thought i was fat at 20. could kick myself via time machine

doh at ciggie blitzen.

and morning all

my son is gorgeous. he talks like my granddad who he never met. he did something to the cat and said, 'that'll shoo ya" and chuckled i lurves 'im.

bubs - cool, calm, dynamic! it's all state of mind from here on in. cruise through the exam.

Morning all.

Saf, your son is indeed gorgeous. I got my period a week early so that would explain my overall bloaterness.

Good luck for your 'zam Dubs.

off to your place of work in a minute blitzen. hoping it's not mayhem.

I'll be there myself in a bit. It will be Hell.

and thanks re: ds.

my sis has mentioned a couple of times lately that he is 'scary' which has worried me a bit.

he plays them like banjos and they let him

ooh we should say hello

i haven't got much to get so will be pottering.

keep your phone where you can hear it

Will do. I need to get a weeks shopping. What time will you be there?

Morning, tis me, Mouseface.

Hydro and physio today. And trying to wrap Christmas presents with Nemo's help.

Yay for a cheeky meet whilst shopping. Boo for lit fag rolling around and driving off with doors wide open!

Loon!

Good luck with your exam Bubs?

Blitz - if you are fat, there is no hope for me!!

Pre DC, I was 8.5 stone and thought I was fat. Christ, never mind kick myself, I drag my skinny ass to present day and say "that's fat you nobber"

Funny how our bodies change when we have hormones and children!

Morning Mousie. I'm off to Tesco once I have written a list. I will NOT buy crack pies.

Morning.

I'm a bit all over the show today so looking forward to hydro to float around in some nice hot water.

Hoping it with soothe my mind as well as my pain.

Good luck at Tesco!! EEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

Off to hydro, back later xx

Yeah I felt fat at eight and half stone.foooooool that I was. Am in apple shop playing on display iPad .have only bought a car die for me oops. Car die was ten pounds at marks and spencers. Now need to find some Lego for ds from pil. And resist mulled wine as can't show up tidily at school run

Hellooo, It wasn't that bad.

That's another £80 down but I am sorted until after christmas now, bar parsnips and picking up the turkey.

Hope Hydro soothes you mouse x

home.

bit of a stressful time in car on the way home.

ds has always preferred grandad to granny and been a bit assertive in demanding things like, it's granny AND grandad's house not just granny's etc. he's played them off against each other and they used to mess about seeing who could get cuddles out of him and he would always go to grandad but it was fairly light.

lately it's getting more and more pronounced and my mother is getting quite pissy about it. then in the car today she told me that the other day he had made her cry, she'd said no about something and he went off into one about how he hated her, she was mean, he wasn't her friend anymore etc etc. i'd imagine it wasn't that bad and if she had laughed at him or told him off it would have been the end of it but she got all upset.

she makes narky little comments about how he doesn't like her and then today she said she thought it must be 'engrained in him from somewhere'. very PA as when i said well if you're suggesting i've taught my son to dislike you i can only assure you it's in your head she just did the mumbly comments about well it must come from somewhere.

i've tried talking to him but he just says he doesn't like her. he's even beginning to turn from my dad a bit. it was always grandad who had to put him in or get him out of his carseat before, now it has to be me though i wouldn't pander to it he burst into tears and refused to say goodbye to my dad today because he got him out of the car. i could see my dad was pissed off but don't know what to do.

i've honestly not turned him against them but some part of me feels like he is somehow living my stuff. hard to explain. it's also the thing with my mother bursting into tears - that seems like it has to be loaded and she's transferring things about her relationship with me onto him and muddling stuff hence her digs about it must come from me as by the time i was a teenager i was telling her i hated her when she'd try and abuse me because i'd had years of it and was fighting back once i was old enough to not just take it anymore.

long long me me me ramble sorry but it is all a bit stressful. i finally got ds to agree to be nicer to them by turning it to doing it for mummy's sake because he wasn't having any of it with the you love them, they love you, you're hurting their feelings type stuff and it's the only way he would agree.

my mum's insinuating i'm brainwashing him to dislike her really pisses me off too - as if i'd do that.

right rant over.

more sorry:

he's challenging as in he challenges what he sees if it isn't right in his mind or if there are lies. like he'll say granny and grandad were arguing and they'll say they weren't because they don't realise that the way they communicate and think is 'normal' is actually awful sometimes and pretty much like a constant bickering and sniding iyswim. so that's what he sees and says and then they see it as lying because their blindness/denial is so vast. watching that is a bit like watching history repeat itself and seeing played out before me what it must have been like with me. he's very much my child in that he is so much like me.

i'm worried he'll get the treatment i got and she'll accelerate to total rejection of him and get nasty as she did with me. i don't think so though really as she seems to be taking the passive martyr route and telling herself i'm brainwashing him (couldn't possibly be that who/how she is and talks to people and behaves is turning off another child who's not good at shutting up and pretending).

oh blah!

Saf you are over thinking.

He is a confident little boy who is secure in who he is.

You could have Mary Poppins as your mother, he is always going to forge his own way and follow his own path xx

Sorry x posts. The difference is if she does get nasty with him he has you there to fight his corner and protect him. You didn't have that.

What Dubs said.

you're right.

i can't make him like them. if he does comletely go off of them. confess i don't like them a lot myself sometimes with the way they behave. and they can't get nasty on him when he's got me, i was on my own, he's not.

will shake off this weird feeling.

how was exam bubs?

Yeah, how did it go dubs?

Agree with Blitz too Satan but I can see why you would want DS to like/be nice to your mum.

To spare her feelings? So that she doesn't think it's you turning him against her?......

But as Blitz says, he's bright as a button and is now at the age when he knows what he likes/dislikes wants/doesn't want.

He's a credit to you Satan.

Hello Bubs, did you have an exam today?

Hydro was fab, physio was not. My back is all taped up again.

And it's snowing here. Heavily.

I'm back BTW

Watching JK and eating lunch.

Hey Mousie

It's raining here. I need to wake up DD and do the school run. I don't want to.