Has anyone had to fix their own internalized misogyny?

[YouAreNotBatman]

And how did you do it?

Long story short I recognize I have some deep patriarchal and misogynistic views, that I don’t want to have but I don’t know how to get rid of them.

For example I’m single, I don’t have kids and think I’m ’less than’ women who have boyfriends or are married or have kids.
I’m not interested in having sex, never had it and unless I get raped - never will be having it. And this makes me think I’m worthless and unloveable, that I don’t deserve live or a partner.
I’ve been called a prude, frigid, bitch, tease, cold, virgin shamed many times throughout my life and I have internalized them all and I feel deep shame about it / myself.
Funny thing is that if someone were to slut shame, not that happens these days, but I know if it did, I would know it’s wrong and call it out, but I can’t do the same for myself, even though I know it equally misogynistic.
Once a guy told me that I was ”useless for a man if I didn’t give pussy” and even now years later I haven’t been able to shake the worthlesness I felt in that moment off.

I seem to have deep beliefs that woman’s worth is tied to being a girlfriend/ wife / mother and women who don’t are something, I don’t know, defect, broken, not worthy or something like that I guess.
And it hurts other women and also myself.

How do I fix this?

I prescribe a nice course of radical feminism. It will help you recognise all the strands.thrn you can unpick them, examine then and see which ones you want to keep.

In western culture it's more common to be ridiculed for being a virgin nowadays.

Anybody read "hagitude" yet?
I read If women rose rooted by same author, I enjoyed it. It's not feminist per se, it was about connecting with yourself, and the damage that devaluing the feminine has on society, look forward to Hagitude.

This, especially when women marry and have children with completely worthless men because it is an elevated status than being single. I despair that we will ever have equality.

The sad thing is once you’ve had your eyes open you can’t shut them.