Feeling very tearful help me......

[laurasarah]

Crying as I'm typing.....

Feel unable to copy. Havent slept properly for days.

God why am I so crap at coping?

Please help me.

What's happened? Is it something specific making you feel so bad, or is it more general?

Sorry you are feeling so rubbish

What's up? Tell more. I know how that feels - you sound very, very tired . Have a hug for starters.

Thanks BeckyBendyLegs

I am extremely tired but you know what its like when your'e really tired but you just cant sleep and then you have a thick head cos you havent slept and then you gotta to get the kids up, get them ready, get them to school and then go to work and then start all over again when you've finished (breath) and all you really want to do is crawl under the covers and die........

I should probably give a bit of background. Am from North East originally, have been married to DH for 13 years (very happy with that side of things). Anyway 4 years ago we moved to Derbyshire..... I've not really settled, have not made any decent friendships IYKWIM and really miss family and close friends back North.

So we decided to move back. DH been up there since last January and we put the house on market. Just sold last Monday which I'm very very happy about. Trouble is the house we are in at the mo is lovely and everything I could want and we cant find anything relatively decent back up North.

We went up at the weekend and looked at 5 but nothing kind of gave me that wow factor!

So now I'm back in Derbyshire feeling very close to moving back and yet so far!

DH away until Wednesday evening and I am feeling very stressed, tired and overwhelmed.

tbh I've been struggling along for the past 16 months without any support so to speak and I feel at the end of my tether. Its as if I just cant take anymore and I have felt today like I was going to have a nervous breakdown.....

Sorry its so long. I just feel so crap at not beng able to cope with lifes ups and downs when it seems everyone around me is fine.

Laurasarah that was me on Friday. I know exactly how that feels. I have three DSs.

Let me assure you that everyone around you is not necessarily fine. Six months ago I told two friends I might have PND and they both said 'oh I had that!' and more recently I was talking to some other friends who'd I'd long envied for being so together and they both said they'd had panic attacks in the past. So you are not alone in having a tough time. People just hide it well.

And anytime you want to sound off here there are lots of lovely people in similar situations. I've found so much support here

Do you have lots of close family in the North East? Is that why you are moving back? I recently relocated from Oxfordshire to Shropshire to be nearer family. I remember so well that feeling of isolation and having no-one to call on on bad days. It took us about 3 years from decision to move to actual move (house got flooded, which didn't help it's selling potential!). But we did it. So please don't despair. You sound so tired. You will catch up on sleep, I never think I will when I've had bad nights, but I always do. Friday was terrible, but now on Monday I feel so much better after two good nights' sleep. And I am coping again. On Friday I had to drag myself and the three children through the motions of the day. I was in tears most of the day. It wasn't a good day.

I hope you can get some rest tonight. Tomorrow things might not looks so bleak. There is always hope, that's been my motto of the last few weeks.

Oh thank you so much BeckyBendyLegs you are a real sweetheart for listening to me.

Sometimes I just feel so crap and I think that my DH (although he tells me eveyday how wonderful I am) must think I am.

I dont have lots of family in the North. My mum and dad both died many years ago (which hasnt helped) and my DH's mum also died so now we just have his dad who is 77 and then his brother and my sister and brother. For me I think its more about being back with supportive and good close friends that I miss. You know the type you can call on at a moments notice or if your'e having a bad day (like today)!

I do have bouts where I have awful nights sleep and dont feel too good the next day but this is different. I feel like I dont have anything left to give and I just want to run away.

You sound so together and sound minded, wish I could be like that.

I am going to try and get some sleep tonight. Have just got the DS's to bed so am going to have a nice long bath.

I would like to know if you or anyone else has any tips for not getting anxious when you cant sleep cos thats one of my biggest problems. And tonight theres no-one to sound off to as DH is away until Wed eve.

Thanks for listening again. X

Oh crumbs I am not at all together and sound minded! I wish!!!

Come and join our 'insomniacs I will sleep tonight' thread if anxiety and sleep is an issue with you. You're more than welcome to join us I have had anxiety and sleep problems since January. I know only too well what it is like to get in a state about not getting enough sleep, then getting more anxious, more tired, less sleep, and so on and so on. I've been trying to conquer this for ages now it feels like - I go through cycles of ok sleep, coping, happy, bad sleep, not coping, anxiety. For me it started when my lovely DS3 was born and I had trouble sleeping after Christmas. It was just awful in January but now much better, although not perfect. It's better than it was thanks to hypnotherapy on my ipod and advice from my lovely friend GetDown who has also replied to your first post above, but I couldn't get through the bad days without support from my DH, friends on here, and my lovely boys.

I hope you have a good night. I'm off to bed now with my herbal tea and orange chocolate, and my book xx

Thanks BeckyBendyLegs

I too am off to bed now. Hopefully I will get some sleep tonight I am very tired. I will join that thread thank you.

Hope you have good night. Will keep you posted.....X