Is anyone around to talk to me? I can't stop crying

[grapeandlemon]

I know the title is ridiculous but I have just broken down and can't seem to get back to normal.

I have had some bad news about a job and it is affecting me beyond the norm. I have suffered from anxiety and depression in the past and this has been some kind of awful trigger. I have had a shit day but want to stop crying now a DH has said all he can to help, no one can help really but I feel I am in an awful situation....

Don't hurry yourself to be back to 'normal', you're allowed to be upset if you've had bad news and we all react in different was at different times.

If you need to cry then cry, just have plenty to drink so you don't get dehydrated and try to get to bed at a reasonable time. It will probably seem better in the morning but if it doesn't then be kind to and patient with yourself.

(hopes that all doesn't sound too patronising).

thank you for responding, maybe i do need to let it out - but my situation wont change. I am not coping with this, I just want it out of my head and to feel better

sorry i am not making much sense

sorry you are feeling so bad right now, can you tell us any more about what has triggered it, maybe we can help get it into perspective a bit for you.

Are you on any ADs?

Sometimes you need to cry - just to let all that emotion out. It's not going to fix your situation, but it may help you to deal with it once you've calmed down in the morning.

I find lists are my friends. It helps me get everything out of head, makes me feel more in control - helps me to make action plans to sort at least some of my problems out (even if i don't follow through i feel more positive)

No no ADs but was due to start them after CBT councelling for anxiety, but I have severe avoidance problems and find it hard to turn up to group therapy so stopped going.

I was in touch with my DD school about a possible job, they told me they had no vacancies and found out tonight they have given someone else a job - she is from a v similar background and qualifications to me, I know her. I was effectively lied to about the role and now I feel it is me they have not wanted to give a job for whatever reason...

DD is there and I am scared about being in close contact with a school and Head who may not like or want me. I feel like nothing, so useless and a failure. I feel lower that something on the bottom of a shoe. I just can't put this into perspective esp as I take DD there every day . I can't say anything to them as it would be confrontational "why did you lie to me?"

I am not making much sense, I know there is not much anyone can say to me I just can't stop crying or sleep I am so afraid

Aww, that's a horrible feeling. I've had something similar myself and I know the scenarios and questions that plague your mind and the feeling of hurt and betrayal with them.

It sounds like the school have handled the situation badly but there is no way of knowing right now what happened in the background, it could be a simple miscommunication or it could have been taken out of the head's hands. I know it hurts though.

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad, I hope the feelings pass soon.

thank you MIB I still feel rotten but hope it will pass soon, hate this feeling of no confidence

I think you may be right when you say the job situation has triggered something for you. Have you had experiences in the past, perhaps as a child, where your parents made you feel the way you do now, in your words, useless and a failure?

My whole childhood and adolescence ABT, but I really thought I was over it and was feeling quite alright about myself until this. I was really passed up and I just keep going over in my head why they don't like me, what I have done wrong.

ABT has hit the nail on the head really. I feel that this goes way deeper than the immediate situation.
I am sure that the decision was not personal, no matter how much it feels that way. You don't have to do anything wrong for something like this to happen.
I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that there is something to learn from every encounter, whether it be positive or negative.
My sis has had episodes of severe anxiety and depresson, always triggered by work related issues so I do recognise how stressed you must be feeling.
Please try not to be too hard on yourself though. It will pass, possibly with the help of ADs and/or talking therapy.