I feel very vulnerable, isolated and lonely. I have 3 young children (who i adore)and a very loving husband.
i find being a mum difficult. My mother left when i was 4 and me and my brothers went into care for 2 years. My father met my stepmother who took us on and found it very difficult as she was young with a new born baby. To cut a long story short she couldn't cope and was cruel to us (particularly me). I have always suffered with self esteem issues and left the family home at 16.
i am a very determined character and during my 20's got a first class hons degree and MA and enjoyed a successful career. The world was at my feet and i had left my miserable childhood behind. Since becoming a mum all that has been stripped away and i am left with the real me and believe me thats hard to deal with.
I have no mum, my sister died just before i had my first child, my best friend died a couple of years later, and to top it all i loswt my dad r3ecently so i am effectively an orphan. I have always had trouble maintaining friendships with women and withdraw because i am scared of people seeing the real me. Atm i feel very lonely but can't ease up because i have no support network or even anyone to talk to.I am currently feeling very negative and my confidence is in the gutter. We are also in the process of selling our house so i am permanently stressed. Sorry about the ramble but can anyone suggest some practical tips on how to help myself?