Anxiety attacks?

[Tootmar]

My ds is almost 7 months old, since he was born I have been experiencing what could be visions of hurting him.
I know that I couldn't ever hurt him. These visions are making me feel very guilty.
I'm also constantly tired and run down (since pregnancy I've been anemic and am on iron)

In his very short life ds has had a bout of poor health and we've had a couple of visits to A&E (allergy related) It's been one thing after another.
Ds is generally a happy baby except he now has separation anxiety and gets very upset when I leave his side (actually he is a velcro baby) - I know that it is a part of normal development, but I've been told that I'm transferring my anxiety on to him.

There is alot going on in my life at the moment. We are desperate to move as the dp, ds and I are living in a bedsit. The whole situation is getting to me.
I haven't spoken to my gp about it- I'm afraid that they'll get ss involved.

TIA, your advice is greatly appreciated.

You really should speak to your health visitor at least. I didn't suffer any thing like this but when my HV spoke to me about post natal depression she assured me that it is not a situation where they get ss involved. They work with you to help you over come any issues. She may even go to your GP with you if you ask her. It is not uncommon nowadays to suffer with post natal depression so I wouldn't get yourself down about it. If you get some help soon you can get better and I'm sure that is what you want.

Please go and get some help and don't feel ashamed.

Hi there, I am so sorry you are feeling so low, and that you are suffering with these frightening thoughts.
Sounds like you have lots of cr*p piling up on you; most people would be feeling wretched in your circs. You're allowed to feel like this.
I had PND. I found talking to my HV (who was lovely) and going to the GP about it was a real turning point. I got help, I got better. At no point did SS get involved.
Help is out there, but you have to ask for it. Could you print out your OP and take that in to your HV/GP?
Honestly Irons is right, this is so common, they will have seen it all before... and they will be kind to you.
Sorry people are telling you you are transferring your anxiety to your baby -- they are talking rubbish, ignore them, keep talking to us.

I think it is a way of saying 'what would happen if {insert the worst thing you can think of here}.'

The brain does odd things sometimes. I don't believe that it means that on any level you wish to harm your baby, just the opposite in fact. I think it may be a symptom of your anxiety though.

Thank you all. I am going through a difficult time - there have been so many issues.

Until recently I haven't been in contact with my HV (since the they called me to demand an explaination of ds visit to the A&E)
I don't know why I've been so reluctant to talk to them.
I even felt anxious when I saw your replies
I didn't really want to post though I'm glad I did < tells herself :The first step is admittance>

Oh I just want to cry!

Your GP should prescribe Diazapam for the anxiety, this was an absolute godsend for me in the early days of depression as up until he put me on them I'd lost 3 dress sizes in a month (which was the only bright side to it!) because I just couldn't eat a thing as my stomach was in knots every time my son cried. x

I wouldn't worry too much about the HV calling about the visit to A&E. I also got a call after my DD ended up in A&E after falling off my bed. Same thing happened to my friend. They just ring up to check that everything is ok. Don't take it personally.

Hey tootmar,

fello anxiety sufferer here! Don;t evel let anyone tell you that you are passing anxiety onto DS! What a load of crap!!! I have been having anxiety since DS1 was about 6 months old, had no idea what was wrong with me at first, just didn;t feel right, worrying all the time felt awful. I finally went to GP and she was amazing! I was terrified thet SS would get involved too, but not a mention of them!

Please talk to someone, you will be suprised about how understanding they are

Massive hugs! You will get through this x x x

How's it going tootmar?