Feeling so depressed, need advices!

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I am a parent of a senco child aged 8.
I have no family around, and am very picky at choosing friends.
I had really difficult time till I got to this point which is not bad atm.
I had to use ad's to take me out of my depression and anxiety, I want to be a better mum, do more for my child and myself.
During half terms I feel more depressed.
I tried to use fluoxetine but it messes with my sleep, am waking up early with not enough sleep.
I feel like I don't want to do anything, I even don't want to cook.
I keep my home tidy, organised.
I wish i could feel better, take my dc out more in this nice weather (but I don't enjoy it at all), do more things with my dc. but I feel like I can't stand talkind to my dc.
He is quite picky at food, quite demanding, whingy.
We both look like high maintenance as well .
I feel tired, maybe because of lack of sleep.
I have many things to do as well of my own.
what shall I do?

Go back to your docs...there are lots of options other than fluxetine that will work better for you. Why would you want to take your dc out when you feel exhausted and anxious?

I have suffered from depression before having my children and can empathise with the feeling of everything being hard work. It wasnt until I began to feel better that I realised how depressed I'd been. Please go back to your docs,and, if you feel up to it, ask for some CBT counselling too. I had CBT and I know that it helps me to recognise when I'm feeling stressed and change things accordingly.

Keeo in touch, it will get better and there is so much support online from mumsnet and other sites x

Oh, and btw, there's nothing wrong with being high maintenance, as long as you make sure the maintaining is done by someone else occasionally

Thank you very much ballstoit.
After posting we went out. He didn't eat breakfast at home, only drank milk. So I bought him something to eat. He enjoyed it.
We walked around, saw a mate, talked a bit.
Went back home.
And gone back out again
To the park this time.
It felt better.
About fluoxetine; the gp cannot prescribe much different, he has to send to psychiatrist somewhere, which I don't trust that I will get what I need.
I had counselling in the past.
Nowadays when I feel bad I tend to take fluoxetine for a while.
I used citalopram as well, made me put on weight.