does anyone else get anxiety mainly on holiday ? (weird I know)

[woodforthetrees]

I have had panic attacks on and off since 1993 but had a partiularly bad year in 200 when I then got myself some help and had a couple of years of weekly therapy.

Generally I find I can keep the anxiety at bay - but I do find that when I go on holiday and am thrown out of the routine of daily life I can sometimes feel it creeping back.

I have two pre-school dc's - I didn't really suffer with any PND with them although had quite a rough patch for a few weeks after no 1 was born. I work part time in a relatively busy and sometimes stressful responsible job and then look after the kids the other half of the time so day to daylife is quite busy...

We're off for a couple of weeks holiday soon and I can already feel myself worrying about whether I'll be ok or not. It's so daft. I've been travelling all round the world on my own (since the panic and anxiety) and have generally been fine - it's just those pottering summer holidays out of my comfort zone which seem to bring on mild bouts of it and then as soon as I get back I'm ok again...

Does anyone else experience this ?

holiday are thought to be amongst one of the most stressful things you can do. With young children it can be very anxious. I wouldnt say you are weird. But I cant offer you any proper help - somewise one will be along for you soon.

How dependant on routine are you. Do you feel thrown normally by a sudden change in routine or is it just the prolonged period of the summer?

If I'm anything to go by it's completely normal. My mum was like this too when we were kids

jonicomelately strangely (or not) my mum did too. I suppose part of me doesn't want to be like her - she would always be a bit odd on holiday like it was all really quite a lot of effort and I wonder whether partly she put me off going on holiday. Holidays were always times as children when my parents would row quite a lot and money was often tight which puts an added strain on things as holidays can be expensive.

I wonder whether some CBT might be good for me as I really want to enjoy my holidays- my DH loves being on holiday and it's the one time he completely relaxes and can end up being a bit quiet and moody trying to manage my anxiety....