Hi there, I have a history of depression and insomnia, and I have been on a low dose(37,5mg) daily of Velnafaxine (efexor) for the past 3 years. During pragnancy I got very depressed and went back on it after first trimenster and coped well. Also coped well with birth and first hectic few months. My psychiatrist said I could come off when I felt ready, as she thought I could cope without them. When lo was 8 months, November last year, I finally went off the meds after slowly cutting the dosage and felt fine. And then winter struck, and baby had colds, he stopped sleeping, and I have been having bad insomnia on and off since Feb. I've seen my doctors, acupuncturist, but in the end I had to face that I was depressed and needed to go back on my meds. It's been two weeks now and I'm already feeling better and less anxious and coping better. But every now and then I'll still have horrible insomnia. The night before last I woke at 3 (oh, and baby is now sleeping!) and could only doze off at around 4:50. And last night I was woken at 2am (baby has a cold again) but could not go back to sleep at all. Trying very hard to keep things in perspective today, but I could do with some encouragement. I feel like a failure for needing the meds, and I'm so anxious that it won't work, although the docs said the sleeping will be the last thing to get better, and I should take sleeping pills every now and then...anybody else gone through something like this? I feel soooo vulnerable at night especially.