Okay I am going to give up the diphrenhydramine...

[Nemofish]

Have posted about this before, but now I feel it's time to STOP. Have had my last tablets tonight.

Tomorrow night I know full well that I will shit myself (not literally) and have huge panic attacks starting around nine or ten pm.

I am going to come on here and ask for hand holding.

Thanks you please?!

Anyone want / need to join me, with something similar?

Good on you. Keep it up!

Excellent Nemo that is great news. You fell asleep at 3:30 and still felt fine? That is brilliant!
I'm so glad you've made the decision to get off the Nytol now.
Remember, your body knows how to sleep and you will get back into a natural rhythm soon.

I have to go into a chemists again tomorrow, I hope I can be as strong again.

Felt a little weirded out and insecure tonight but nothing I can't handle (she says confidently)

Tbh I think a lot of my anxiety comes from my discomfort with the idea that my life (and our life as a family) is not normal. Well it is and it isn't. We have breakfast lunch and dinner, we do bath stories and bed with dd, we do swimming / trampolining / crafting with dd. Day to day stuff, fairly normal.

We are supported wonderfully by dh's family, we have a good life and I took the oppurtunity to retrain (have been a carer since the age of 19) and I have done several courses and learnt several holistic therapies. I am starting to learn tarot reading (which has runs in the family) and also mediumship a little (same, family tradition).

I am more scared of success than of failure. I am scared of doing the hard work to get where I want to be. If anyone has managed to suspend their disbelief and read this far, thank you!

Nemo just to say you are doing great I'm cheering you on from the sideline xx

hi nemo......2 nitrazepam is the maximum recommended dose. Dont know why gp has put them on a repeat........its so dangerous.

Glad you managed to sleep eventually.

Sorry, alypaly, only 2 tablets sounded like not a lot, how daft am I?!
I probably thought that as I have been having 6/7 tablets per night.

Thanks willsurvivethis

On night 3 now. I like me more when I am not on them. Tbh I have not ruled out ever using them again, however not at the dosage I have been, and not as continuously. But if I had a major stress on and couldn't sleep, I would consider getting some. Didn't buy any today, instead I went to a japanese restaurant on my own and pretended to have an air of mystery I am such a loon

So, night 4 now.

Not sure how to carry on now. Have had some resurfacing of ishoos - posted in relationships. I would love to be a super strong woman and forge ahead bravely, but I am not feeling so brave right now.

I don't know. If I get chance tomorrow, I might get some tablets and take a low dose for a few days.

Watch in amazement as I back-pedal at a rate of knots...

Nemo hun don't backpedal - these days are going to be the hardest and yes you will feel the issues more now you're not drowning them in Nytol. Keep looking at how you will feel once you are out of this pill taking business. Keep at it, one day at a time. xx

Don't give up now Nemo! Please don't!

If you start talking of "just a low dose" "just a few days" it will be a slippery slope.

Please don't undo the great start you've made to changing your life for the better.

Going to get nurofen+ for (new) tooth infection, but won't ahve chance to get all furtive and ask for drugs nytol as dh will be with me anyway.

Nemofish I think you are doing brilliantly and you're very strong (you've proved that before in spades). Stay strong.

Going to be totally honest and admit to buying 2 packets of tablets yesterday and having some last night and tonight.

However the break I have had from them has made me realise how much they have effected my relationship with dh, and my ability to get stuff done in the evening, even if it's just reading. I also realised that I had less panic attacks this time round (on giving up taking them) and I think that my self-confidence is in a better place.

I will try again.

I have to be honest with myslef and say that I went back on them for selfish reasons, cos I like them.

Hey Nemofish you are so brave admitting this and being so honest with yourself.

I hope you manage to stop soon

I agree, it takes a lot to be honest. It's great that you realise that you did a great job this time around and this means that next time you feel ready to try again you'll do even better.

hi nemo, just read whole thread

and well done

Thanks Trinity