New to mumsnet: Pregnant with depression and not finding it easy.

[bexy73]

I'm new to mumsnet (not really sure how this all works !!
I'm 18 weeks pregnant with my third child and feeling dreadful. I have had an eating disorder for many years and was discharged from hospital last july following a relapse of my anorexia and depression. I was doing really well until I decided to stop my antidepressants and became pregnant. Now really struggling with my mood and reemergence of my eating disorder thoughts and feelings. Am still eating well but struggling to get through each day . Feeling really guilty as this should be such a happy time for me and I'm not feeling it. Looking for friendship and support from anyone who is or isn't finding pregnancy to be the best time of their life!

I've been through two pregnancies with severe anti-natal depression, crap isn't it. I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this.

There is an AND support thread on here somewhere, I'll try and find it for you.

Thank you so much driven to distraction. That would be really kind. I was wondering if you don't mind me asking, did you have to take antidepressants in your pregnancies? My midwife and psychiatrist are really keen for me to do so and I really don't know what to do. I can hardly decide what clothes to put on in the mornings at the moment let alone make important decisions!!

It's really important that you listen to your MW and psychiatrist, they really don't give ADs lightly in pregnancy and if you need them, you need them. End of story.

As you say, you're not in a state to make decisions and so you must let those who are there to help you do so. You have to get through the next months somehow.

As for the support thread (which I'm afraid I didn't have the balls to post on) I still haven't been able to find it. I've posted a thread asking for directions, so hopfully I'll be able to put a link up for you soon...

AND is a bitch and you are not alone with it, loads of MNers have suffered and I'm sure other people will be along later.

Thanks Driventodistraction looks like I don't have a choice any more. Saw Psych today who told me I have until tomorrow to decide or he will section me. Feeling desperate and like such a failure.