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REALLY STRUGGLING

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 10:21

Hi everyone,

I really need some word's of wisdom as im in a bit of a state.

I have been on 20mg citalopram since Nov mainly for aniety panic attacks, and mild deppression. before the AD'S it was hell, constant panic attacks making me feel ill all the time basically it took over my life.
Since taking my AD'S my life has turned around no panic attacks or aniexty it's been brilliant. i actually felt "normal"

Recently i had a very early MC and since then i have fekt very anxious again, couldn't get an appointment with GP but with a recent chat with my doctor she said of i felt i needed toi i could increase mt AD'S so i started taking an extra 5mg making me 25mg a day just till i can get to see her again. but the last few days it has got worse i got woken up by a panic attack last night and i feel so shakey again ans sick and basically horrible. I'm so scared that my AD'S wont help me anymore and im going to be like this all the time again, i really wont be able to do it again, looking back on before i feel sick how bad i felt then.

Please help any words of wisdom

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 11:04

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 12:25

Any advice would be great i really feel like i'm sinking.

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willsurvivethis · 06/04/2010 12:26

Hey hun sorry you are feeling so bad xx

Do bear in mind that feeling upset and anxious is a normal response to a MC especially if you really want another baby .

ADs can do a lot but they do not take away everything and they shouldn't or you'd be a zombie wouldn't you.

You can easily get to the point though where you get anxiety because you are scared of anxiety. You will be ok and you will settle down again.

Your ADs will help and if these don't others will. 5mg is a very small increase so not feeling the benefit of it straight away is not surprising. When can you see your doctor?

BitterAndTwistedChoreDodger · 06/04/2010 12:30

Sorry, No advice, just didn't want you to go unanswered.

You know you need to go back to your doctor don't you? Self medicating is not a good way to go forward.

It sounds like you are doing really well, after I had (2) early MC's I was knocked back for mmonths.

The AD's have worked for you before so they can work again. You just need to be prescribed the right dose.

I am sure someone eminently more of an authority will be along soon, so until then have a big squeeze from me and remember - this too shall pass.

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 12:44

Thank you both,

I tried to get an appointment with my GP today they were busy, i will try again in the morning. I def agree self medicating is not the way to go at all, i just felt so dessperate and didnt want to slip back anymore i thought if i just took an extra 5mg it might tie me over till i see my GP.

My Mc was so early i had only just found out and then 2 days later i started bleeding, it was very upsetting and i was so scared and i just wanted it all over so it was a bit of a relief when it was, that may sound really bad but my aniexty took over and i was petrified as i had never had anything like thay happen.

Also i didnt mention when i did find out i was pregnant my doctor said to go down to 10mg which i did, maybe the going down off the tablets are what have done it? i just hope so much i can go back to the way i was im so scared

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 17:05

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BeckyBendyLegs · 06/04/2010 17:19

I have no advice as such, just wanted to say so sorry about your MC. I've had two. Take lots of care of yourself and be kind to yourself, you are bound to find this a hard time xx

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 17:38

Does it take a while for your hormones to go back? i know i wasn't far along at all but i feel like this when my hormones go up (around period time)

And thank you for awnswering, i feel so alone at the moment.

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BeckyBendyLegs · 06/04/2010 18:00

Initially just a few days before you start to feel un-pregnant but I'd say a couple of months before the hormones properly sort themselves out. I know how you feel, it can be a terribly lonely experience but if you can talk to anyone who is willing to listen as it does help and you can always get suppor on mumsnet, there are MC threads which I think really saved me the last time it happened (the first time I didn't know about mumsnet).

willsurvivethis · 06/04/2010 18:08

There used to be a long running thread on MN called 'knicker checkers anonymous' - for those pregnant after a MC.

Doesn't that just say enough about the anxiety involved with MCs?

Whether or not you were anxious before

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 18:18

I actually feel pregnant it so strange, i feel sick almost all day and wake up at night thinking im going to be sick, my boobs are sore. i have stonking headaches and my tiredness is crazy i could sleep all day and night.

i must admiy when i first saw the blood it was the first panic attaxk i had since Nov and beeing on the tablets so i suppose that could of triggered it all back again.
and all the changing up and down with the dosage.

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OrganicHairbrush · 06/04/2010 18:33

I'm really sorry about your MC. About 10 years ago took citalopram and got very much the symptoms you describe... and when I came off citalopram (which needs to be done very slowly and carefully) the worst of the panic subsided. My suggestion would be that your ADs and your increased dose might be making things worse. I think you really need to speak to your GP... or, if he/she doesn't have experience with ADs, to get a psych refrral.

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 18:42

The annoying thing is they were perfect for me, everything was brilliant, then this all happend and i'm back to where i started again

I hate the thought of not being able to feel good again, i'm going to hopefully get an appointment tommorow.

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willsurvivethis · 06/04/2010 18:47

You will be able to feel good again!!! As I said before there is no reason why the citalopram will not sort you out again once things have stabilised and if not there are lots of other meds to try and maybe even some counselling to help you deal with this MC (The fact that it was really early makes no difference - you feel what you feel!)

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mumsie123 · 06/04/2010 18:52

Thank you, i'm going to cling to the fact that your right, i have come through it once with there help, i'm sure i will get there again.

I'm ok about the MC now, the aniexty from seeing the blood and basically not knowing what was going to happen really scared me and when i was told it was over i was relieaved that i didnt need to go to hospital or anything.

And i love you name willsurvibethis couldn't of put that better

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countrylover · 06/04/2010 19:28

i don't have any experience of miscarriages but i can only imagine how traumatic it must have been. anyone would feel anxious and extremely upset by it so don't be too hard on yourself. you've had a normal reaction to a very upsetting event.

please try not to read too much into it. it doesn't necessarily mean the anxiety is returning, it just means your brain is trying to process a horrible situation and it will probably take a few days to settle down again.

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mumsie123 · 07/04/2010 10:58

Thank you i feel a little better today so hopefully yhings have started to settle down. xxx

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